Clive's BLogz

2010-04-22T01:20:00.002+08:00

Counting dw 15 more days til ORD... hahaz. Finally going to finish serving NS n leave army for gd. Actually nt gone for gd la, still gt 10yrs cycle of reservist but anyway finally I can smell the end is near. Muhahahaz... Well so much shit happening all cos of 1 new person in my coy which I can count myself lucky tat im leaving at juz the right time. Tink wat im going miss most is the fun I had wit my colleagues in camp. Well wish them gd luck n all the veri best to them for their future endeavour.

Another thing tat im excited is in another less than 24 hrs time im off to Seoul, South Korea for a 10 days holidays. After saving so much $, 6mths time n effort on researching, planning, surveying around sg for the best deals I can grab for air tickets n hotel, after so much difficulties which the travel agency giv me n FINALLY! is the time to ripe my rewards for my effort for a relax n enjoy holiday. As Seoul is 1 of my dream destination, double the excitment n anticipation which I hav nw. Well at the same im abit pressurize cos there r total 6 of us going n im hav been the onli 1 doing all the research n planning, Im sort of like the coordinator cum tour guide which my friends r going depend on, so tat makes me abit worried tat tis trip might end as a failure. Well, hopefully everythings turns out well n every1 had a enjoyable trip. All right til then cya...

DaeeeHanMinguk n ORD lo !! hahaz

2010-01-10T19:32:00.009+08:00

Happy New Year to every1 out there. Well, its been a long long time since I last post sth here. Actually kind of lazy to blog cos usually I would rather spent time on playing com games or watch drama at home since these activities take chunk of my time when Im booking out. lolz.

Since 2009 hav become history so wat I hav been doing for past yr? Well, I muz say 09 was quite relatively boring n enjoyable yr for me. Serving my liability (ns tat is) n during tis time meeting alot new ppl frm my unit. I hav travel the most in a yr through my life, to lot of places like Redang Island, KL n Phuket wit my army friends which r the enjoying times of the yr. Hm... alot of times I felt reali bore to the core especially when there is no outing n staying at home facing my old p4 com which I don noe wat I can do wit it since the most I could do wit it is surfing net. Maybe tats when I begin to hav tat interest in studying Korean culture n history n oso pick up the hobby of watching Korean dramas since its an activity tat kept me occupied for hours each day at home n since then the amount of dramas I bought is so many til I need to buy a shelf to keep. Sounds quite crazy n unbelievable, hahaz. Well, In nov juz bought a new com which Im reali excited n proud of cos ever since april most my friends I hav been hav tis idea of buying, research n plan the specification tat I wan n finally saving enuff $ to buy it. argh.. yes la finally hahaz.

As 2010 arrive, its the yr tat I hav been looking forward to cos in another 4mths time Im going serve finish my ns n gaining my freedom back. hahaz. Next few mths will be quite a busy period for me cos I hav to start applying for my further studies n planning for my Korea trip in April.

Tis is a mv by 4Tomorrow, a Korean girl group form by GaIn frm Brown Eyes Girls, HyunA frm 4minute, Seung Yeon frm Kara n Uee frm After Sch. The song is called "Tomorrow" n I felt the lyrics is quite meaningful especially for those who r having a hard time, so enjoy guys... hahaz

Well, I shall end here by wishing all my friends out there a Happy New Yr ahead n a better tomorrow. cheerz...! hahaz

2009-06-15T02:03:00.002+08:00

yoz every1, well well its been ages since my post which was in dec last yr? lolz. Too much dust is accumulated. Don y sudden get the urge to blog, maybe im juz way too bored. hahaz. Anyway, so far nt much happening for me in 09. Business as usual, serving my liabilities by doing duties n waiting for the day tat i can say tat i hav my debt. lolz. Juz went to Redang Island, M'sia in may with some army friends. The bus journey was hell, 10hrs to Terranganu, 1hr ride to ferry terminal bef another 1 ferry ride to the island itself. Its quite a relaxing place n basically most of the time there we were snorkeling at different places near the island. Its the 1st time i snorkel n its quite an gd experience. As the water there is veri clear, i gt to c corals n fishes swimming around me. Can check out my photos in my facebk profile for the Redang trip, hard to describe my whole experience in juz word. lolz. Next trip maybe Genting still in the process of planning, all tis holiday is juz too tempting to nt to go. Hav been saving a couple of mths for my new com n looks like my dream com is getting further away frm me. hahaz

2008-12-08T14:16:00.002+08:00

yoz, its been long time since my last update. Well, for those hu don noe I was posted to 8th Sig Battalion since last month. Since den life inside my unit haven been great if nt worst. Training was reali veri tough which I felt physically n mentally exhausted. haix... veri sianz, but wat to do? tats army, gt endure til I turn ops which life will be slightly better. Alrite enuff of army stuff.

Sat went to hav steam boat buffet at town to celebrate siong bday n I don tink its worth it cos we spend like $50 each person but there isnt much variety of food offered. Worst was the drinks, initally we thought drinks was free flow as the waiteress there nv mention tat drinks is nt included in the original so we keep order n when we gt the bill, we were all stun. After tat went to bukit timah to play pool bef slack awhile at mac den home sweet home.

Sun went training den after tat went to chevrons wit siong as he need to buy extra set of army stuff bef his enlist next thurs. lolz. But din manage to get cos his size sold out already, guess too late for him to buy ppl already ahead of him. Anyway after tat went to his watch Sg match bef going to thompson to hav dinner. Midnite went to meet xm, mk n tiong at BP plaza to chill n chit chat all the way til 3am bef going home n knock out straight away. A day full of activities, too shag already. lolz

2008-10-27T14:46:00.002+08:00

Ytd went training in morning n frankly speaking din reali hav a gd time. My injury giving me lots of prob, outpaced n outmuscled, mis-placed passes n so on... argh... so lacklustre n in the end aggrieved the injury further. sianz... Anyway after tat went home to rest bef at nite went sunny's hse watch chelsea-liverpool match wit tiong. Well, was hoping for a draw which arsenal will be hoping oso in order to stay closer to the league leaders but den liverpool won which I hate to admit tat they do deserve it la. lolz. After the match me n tiong went home cos sunny wanna go for a run. midnite go run?! nuts. lolz. While we were waiting at the bus stop, gt a grp of bangla alighting frm a bus fighting! Wat a commotion man, right in front of so many ppl fighting. Tink they were all drunk already. Anyway din bother much oso, my bus arrive juz in time as I was rushing home to catch Arsenal match.

Many of times we kept ask ourselves "wat if I hav done tis or done tat, wat if I haven done tis or done tat" but like many hav said, things hav happened n we cant change anything other than having regrets over the mistakes... Well, juz a thought tat I hav...

2008-10-26T01:40:00.004+08:00

Time for my weekly updates again. Juz finished Exercise VHF on mon n its nt so shag like the Line summary last wk. I was quite lucky to be assign to an air-con rover detachment. Well, basically the whole exercise was to setup radio set den station at some "wulu" place in sg n do constant communication back to HQ which is a detachment station at my camp. I was stationed at an abandoned HDB estate which was veri wulu n abit eerie. The whole exercise last til evening n we were called back to camp. Now tis was the most jia lat part as yet AGAIN my platoon lost sth when we returning our stores. Its took us 3 hrs to find tat thing n by then its already past 12 midnite so the next day had enuff slp n totally shag man. Wed finally get some "fresh air" cos it was our veri first nitez out so some of my platoon mates n I went to Lot 1 to hav dinner after spending some cash at the arcade. Tis wk finished all my theory exams n well, its difficult to fail even u don study at all cos no matter wat sergeants will keep helping u til u pass. lolz. next wk will be all the practical exam so hopefully I will get those "help lines" again.

Sianz, ytd was looking forward to bk out tis wk cos mon public holiday so its going to be a long wkend but so sway, juz as I was bk out, I was dw wit fever, diarrhoea n injured oso (do too intense workout the previous day". Super dw man, nt again gt sick during my off. argh... Ytd n today was absoulately feeling terrible, rushing to the toilet was already a prob cos the injury I had difficulty walking. argh............. don noe whether I can recover in time for tml training

2008-10-19T02:26:00.004+08:00

Deep thoughts went thru... Haix... don noe wats wit me sometimes, yet again making the same mistakes which I once did n regretted bef. I was wrong to act like tat, shldnt hav juz lose my cool which is totally nt my usual self. Maybe like wat friend hav said, its juz a prob I created which shldnt even hav exist in the first but at times u juz cant help it. Watever it is, cant giv myself anymore excuses, I guess its time n its my turn to move... haix...

2008-10-19T01:30:00.002+08:00

Juz finish Line Summary exercise tis wk which means 1 more exercise n im getting near to my 2nd POP as a signaller. Well, line summary was shag man especially I was choosen the IC for my detachment. First I hav recce or scout the area to plan where is my end pt n which r the crossings tat I hav to buried or do overhead across the trees for my tel lines. My detachment was veri lucky cos the pack we gt hav lots of entanglement which we called it "fried boon hoon" argh... Jia lat man, tis "fried boon hoon" is every signaller, lines man nightmare cos u hav to try to unentangle the lines which will takes u ages n we had lay 1.6km of lines within 2hrs! a tall task for us as its the first time we doing it. As we had camouflage my lines so we were bashing thru the vegetation getting multiple insect bites n cuts by tall grass n mimosa. After lay finish we hav try comms back to HQ to check whether our lines r working. If its nt working den we hav go back thru the vegetation n check the whole stretch of lines to for any breaking lines. After everything is done, we need do roll back the lines which is another veri shag part of the excercise. Although tgt we had to lay twice, once in the day n another at nite. btw the time we went back to camp its already 2plus am but we still cant slp yet cos we had to pack the lines neatly into a pack bef we can called done so din reali had enuff slp the past wk. Next up is excercise VHF, its abt radio communication tink shld tat shag since we r sitting a vehicle wit radio equipment.

2008-10-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

Nt a veri gd week for me. last sun kena burn cos guard duty n den wed suppose to hav nitez out but cos my platoon lost an important map den nw for our commander take away the privileges tat we hav n oso maybe every1 need to sign extras which means guard duty again. wth la, onli 4 person touch n saw the map bef while the rest nv even saw it n some don even noe abt the existance of the map. veri sianz man....

2008-10-04T19:14:00.003+08:00

Another couple of hrs n im back in camp. sianz, tis weekend need to bk in early cos its my turn to do guard duty, do for 24hrs den mon straight go lesson. Shag man... Well, the whole of today either surfing net or juz laze around staring in space, bore is the word tat sum up my day. Boring, boring, boring man. argh... cant seems to find sth to occupied myself. Each day tis question keep popping out in my mind, is there sth tat I can look forward to? sianz... I guess there is none... nth tat I can look forward to...

2008-09-28T04:34:00.002+08:00

nth much for me tis weekends. Today during the evening went for dinner wit lim n sunny. Had curry fish head which I practically trying to stuff the food into my stomach cos juz bef meeting them I ate my lunch cum dinner already, already so full n tat 2 still try to force me to eat somemore -_- say wat cos I in NS nw so need to eat more to defend them. wat nonsense sia, defend them!? cant be bother man. hahaz. After tat went to lim's hse to watch match which say tiong came at a later time. Tat sunny was reali veri noise the whole time cos its his beloved liverpool playing. Din reali stay there for long cos tml still gt match to play so 11pm home sweet home liao.

2008-09-27T03:43:00.002+08:00

Well current being posted to Signal Institute (SI) at Stagmount camp for training course to be a signaller. Basically my course is 6wks den after see where im being posted to. Juz spent my 1st wk there n wat I can say, its reali super slack n reali veri boring. Many ppl say I got into a gd n nt "xiong" unit which I personally don tink so. The most tough is the PT n the endurance run while the rest is lecture n practical lesson but yet y I still find it tough? Cos everyday we r fighting the "Zzz" monsters which we always lose. hahaz. Mental torture sia, everyday reading nth but theory notes n listen to lecture which r veri dry n we r always trying to keep ourselves frm falling aslp. Wats unbelievable was I thought in army is all abt physical training n no studies but I gt a shocked when I came in. All the things I going thru nw is SCIENCE PHYSICS which I hated it most when I was in sec sch!! n til nw I don even noe wat im studying. Omg, somemore still gt exams 1, everyday I keep thought to myself don noe hw am I get thru tis sia. When I was in BMT time passes by veri flies but here in SI is totally the opposite. 1day feels like 1mth tat is hw time passes by so slowly. sianzzzz.... The bunk condition n the food was oso veri jia lat n I still had difficulty adapting there. Although my course is juz 6wks onli but still I wonder hw I going to get thru all tis shit. In BMT so long I nv become IC bef but so sway I was appointed platoon 2IC (assistant ic) on the first day in SI cos my register no. is 1. Although its 2IC nt IC but the job is still the same as being as IC, need to do alot "sai job". argh... Its nt an easy job especially there r so many attitude ppl in the platoon. Gt once lights out time already past but my platoon mates still haven lights out yet so sergeant call me since I ic to tell them to light outs when I was already long aslp. -_- giv me prob 1. I guess the postive in SI is its nt so regimental like in tekong cos we were no more being treated as recruits, we r privates! lolz. ya so tat hw my 1st wk life in SI. Wit so many negatives hopeful the next 5wks will be smooth for me.

2008-09-15T16:59:00.002+08:00

Last few days went to chalet at Home TeamNS to celebrate lei, jx, n mk bday. The chalet wasnt reali gd for me cos either I need to go out or when im at the chalet I will be slping so nth much to tok abt. Don noe y I so easily tired oso. sianz... Anyway I guess every1 is happy tat the bday celebration was a success cos bef tat there were fears tat it fail due to last min planning all tat stuff. Well, here I wish the 3 sept bday boys-jia xing (4/9), lei chiang (12/9) n ming kai (18/9) Happy 21st Bday guys!! cheerz...!

2008-09-12T14:30:00.003+08:00

POP lo. no more chao recruit but a PRIVATE nw. hahaz. 2 mths dw, 1yr n 8mths to go. Well, still a long long to go la. Juz POP on wed n BMT days r over, kind of missing the days in tekong especially my bunk mates in section 4, ppl like my buddy melvin-the most steady buddy u could hav, always helping ppl no matter hw shag he is, elson, gary "the frog" cos his SBJ can easily jump 260cm without much effort, yew king, seng-which gt once wearing the boots in underwear forgetting to wear the smart4 first hahaz, bao long, JJ, leslie, ken- hu always frown, zac-the onli melayu in our section, zhi hong-platoon best, coy best PT, too fit already la, hahaz, n leonard- hu is always ask for food cos he is always hungry lolz. Well, afterall hav been thru training tgt, field camp, eat, slp n havoc tgt n kena "knock it dw" tgt, so yea lots of memories in tekong. Falcon Platoon 1 Section 4 the best section in the coy! hahaz. Well, gd luck n all the best to u guys frm section 4, wonder which unit I will be posted to, hopeful nt so 'xiong' la. lolz. cheerz...!

2008-08-29T23:01:00.002+08:00

Back again after long long break frm blogging. Time flies, another 12 more days n im going to POP.

Finished my 6D5N of field camp which was toughest test for me so far. First we hav march 8km to our first campsite. Everday training out field, digging Shell Scrap big enuff to cover my whole body wit juz a small spade n stick (we call it ET Tool), like digging my own grave, super shag man but well, I manage to dig finish. During the field camp no water for us to wash so we could onli do powder bath, spamming powder to make ourselves as comfortable as possible. Through out the camp everyone morale was reali low, no laughter n everyone was juz stoning there counting dw the days of c civilization again, some even hallucinating. Well, there r too many stories during the field camp which I cant put here in detail, anything u guys juz ask me in person. The week after field camp was SIT test (situational test) which was 2D2N of out field again. We were group together wit ppl frm other platoon n everyday doing mission. Some mission were quite easily accomplish some was quite difficult but every mission was quite tiring especially the mission which we had to carry casualties n run.

Last wk veri dw, fall sick yet again for the 2nd time in BMT n its over the weekends again. Had such high fever tat I practically cant move much n juz lie on the bed for the whole wkend, dw man... there goes my wkend again. Went to private clinic n the doc advise me to stay at home for few more days n nt go back camp so fast but in the end I still drag myself back to camp cos the procedure of endorsing the MC is veri complicated n so many upcoming activities like IPPT n route march, reali cant afford to take MC so juz endure all the way. Lucky next day manage to recover abit n take the IPPT but den the veri demoralising thing I fail. Sianz, hav to retake again. Haix... my hopes of going command sch oso being dashed cos im being declared unfit due to some prob wit my knees. veri dw... wonder which unit will I posted to anyway tink oso no use. Well, for nw juz concentrate on my upcoming major event- the 24Km route march on mon n POP. argh... I muz ENDURE all the way~

cheerz...!

2008-08-09T01:07:00.002+08:00

wo-oh. Its been nearly a mth since I blog, well time to revive it. lolz. 4wks in in NS n I shld life nw life is so much diff frm civilian life, can do watever I wan wit nobody bother me but nw tats it so many restrictions so sometime quite frustrating oso. Anyway tats wat NS all abt la. The first 2wks was more of getting use to the NS life as there were no punishment for us even for the simplest of mistakes we made n surprisingly I nv feel homesick n straight away the 2nd day I adapt already. Towards the end of 2nd wk, near 1st bk out was feeling terrible man. my platoon out of 49, 29 dw wit virus (don noe which idiot spread the virus) n I myself oso dw wit the virus by the time of my first bk out. Thought the first bk I could enjoy but instead feeling absolutely lousy man. so juz spend the wkend go polyclinic c doc n buy army stuff, wat a waste of my wkend. The 3rd wk went for live HG throw. The past few batches of my company hav more than 8 blinds (blinds r HG tat r already thrown but din explode) but lucky my batch break tat curse n gt 3 or 4 blinds n lucky I din gt blind cos throw blind reali veri paiseh 1. Was looking forward to my 2nd bk out cos I din enjoy my 1st wkend. wanted to catch a movie but dw man, all the timing r selling fast n the onli available seating is at the veri front row -_- . Well, nvm la at least get to enjoy playing tennis n meet up wit my friends, sunny, siong n mk. 4wk n im already doing live range shooting so tats hw fast mytraining schedule goes n hw pack it is. Crazy pace man but tats enhanced batch 9wks BMT, everything veri fast compare to the PTP batch. Well, toking abt the live range shooting. During the pratice I did so well but during the test perform quite badly, dw man, in the end gt 25/32. Tis sunday is the start of my field camp n its going to be the real test of mental toughness in BMT as training is going to be veri shag n hopefully im able to go thru smoothly. alright tats all for nw. cya

2008-07-09T02:56:00.003+08:00

Well, its a long long time since I last update. Past week hav been going out almost everyday. Praying, ritual for my late grandmother n uncle on Mon. Tue family outing which I rented car as we went for sight seeing, the T3 n the flyer den had a feast at Adam Rd. Thur went in JB wit xm, sunny, ngor n ah Tai for K session at "neway" in City Sq den dinner at the market which we always went. Fri rent car again den go buy toiletries prepare for army. After tat went to West Coast "Cheese Prata Shop" for dinner which was nt reali gd n more ex than the 1 at Thompson den went to "Cold Rock" at Holland V for Ice-cream bef ending the day playing pool at Bt Timah.

Sat evening went for a "farewell dinner" for me n ngor at Tiong Bahru Plaza's Raja Inn Resturant. I tink the best thing there is nt Steam Boat but is the Durian Ice-cream! Oh my, I can clearly recall the taste, fabulous~. After dinner wanted go for bowling session at Home Team NS but by the time we reach there all the lanes r taken already so in the end every1 went separate except me, mk n say tiong went to Orchid Country Club at Yishun to play pool.

Sun went Lim hse for a swim wit mk n sunny bef going eating "Bak Kut Teh" at Turf City wit his family, kind of awkard for the 3 of us. Anyway after went to Bt Timah to play pool again. lolz. Tat Ngor so weak initially say don wan to go as we plan to go geylang eat Tim Sum n bean curd but when I was already on the way picking him, he no choice gt dragged by us. hahaz. Bef we went home I wanted to buy some durians but prob man. Din noe Durians can be so ex. I choose til D24 de den the seller open 2 for me to select. $20 per kg so when weigh, its 4 Kg so tat means $80 for juz 2 durians nia. Dw man, straight away I decided nt to buy but the seller insist tat I hav to buy since its already open. WTH. Totally dw, decided to minimise my damage so thought of buying juz 1 since I onli gt $40 at tat time but the seller still cont to insist. Den after discussing wit my friends. They told me juz heck care n run away, teach me be bastard. hahaz. So I came out wit a plan of me lying to go ATM withdrew $ which acutally is running away while 1 of my friends drove the car to a few streets ahead to pick me n Run! lolz. Kind of guilty being a bastard but nt I wan oso la. Had to be a bastard cos the price is juz too absurd to me. After tat cameo home sweet home for every1. After tat sending them home, one the way I pass by a police road block. They juz check the interior of the car n din check my driving lesson which I was quite puzzled. As I go off I saw person look alike tat wanted man Mas Selamet den I realise the purpose. I tink tat person dw, kena for more examination to confirm he nt MSK. lolz

Parents noe tat I hav been craving so much for durians so they bought 3 on Mon to hav a "durian feast". My whole family love durians except for my bro who absoluatly dislike it n eating 3 still nt enuff decided to buy another 3 the next day. too UP~ hahaz. Well, I guess they oso thought I wun hav chance to eat again probably for 2 yrs so decided to buy again.

Well, by nw I would hav juz alittle more than 24hrs left of freedom. Thur going in liao, getting more n more dw as each hr passes. Oh, like many say veri fast finish one, its juz part of life n every guy hav to go thru. Guess no one reali do noe, acutally im nt dw cos going in but juz mainly on other things which I had set for myelf bef going in but din manage to fulfill it. Its like the feeling of having unfinished business but yet time is up. The onli thing I succeed was getting my driving lesson, the rest all fail to achieve. haix... anyway like a phrase says, "chu lai you shi yi tiao hao han zhi". Hopeful the 2yrs is well spent for me n perheps coming out a changed person becoming better n stronger. Ok la tats all for nw, will update my advantures inside after 2wks. Til den cya...

cheerz...!

2008-06-29T02:53:00.005+08:00

Happen to see a pic online which I find it interesting. lolz. Well, as u all noe recently reported on news tat a few more ERP gantry being setup which increase the already so many ERPs on the road in sg n sg won the sovereign right over one of the 3 disputed islands wit m'sia call Pedra Branca. As the island is situated where the Singapore Strait meets the South China Sea so many ships will pass by tis island since its a major shipping route in the world.

Tis is the reason y Sg wan tat island so badly...

hahaz. hw creative...

2008-06-28T23:59:00.001+08:00

Ytd was a reali active day for me. First go for bowling at Home Team NS. Play a "warm up" game n another 3 competitive games which the losing team hav to treat the winning team drinks. Me, sunny n mk 1 team while ngor, ngor's gf christine, joanne n chao xiang 1 team. My team play so well during the warm up game n won but for the 3 competitive games we lose. Sianz sia, games without any stakes on the line we win but when its comes to competitive game we lose. Well, my team lose n we had to treat the team drinks -_- . lolz. After tat meet ah tai at JB for K session. We sang frm 3-7pm for juz rm25 per person onli including snacks n drinks which is so cheap man. After K session had dinner at a HK cafe bef walking around City Sq n go home.

Today went to Sim Lim Sq in the late afternoon wit lim as he buying desktop n ask me to go help him c n carry for him -_- . I muz say computers r getting cheaper n cheaper, n processor is getting more powerful n faster. Browsing at the com stuff there makes my desktop look ever aging n slow. hahaz. On the way to Sim Lim I found sth interesting...

a street which is named after me! hahaz. Well, nt reali, juz co-incidence. Ok la. tats all for today...

2008-06-24T23:59:00.001+08:00

Yesh Im a freeman liao! Well, cant be freeman for long oso la. Another 2 weeks n I become cheap labourer for sg liao.

Today last day work at SLA (Singapore Land Authority) n abit sad to leave afterall been working there for more than 2mths which I hav develop tis sense of attachment at SLA. Although I always mention the work is boring but other than tat, the working environment is quite easing n ppl such as my manager n supervisor r approachable n friendly. Well, guess I going miss my time there n the food too especially the fried bananas n jackfruit during those lunch times. hahaz. hm... perhaps maybe I will go back to work as full time employee in future? which I might nt noe, well...tat depends on where my interest lies in the future. All I can say is I enjoy my time at SLA n for nw juz wanna enjoy the 2 weeks left of freedom tat I hav wit my family n friends.

cheerz SLA!

2008-06-23T01:53:00.002+08:00

Ytd Holland was reali disappoint as they r knockout by Russia. Wats more disappointing was the attitude of the Dutch players. They juz simply didnt giv a fight n show the hunger to win. im bitterly disappointing wit Holland n well they deserve to lose. Gt to given credit to Russia, they play as a team n show the hunger to win even though they r the underdog team. congrats to Russia n hopeful they can go far as I wan to c Arshavin play hu I was reali impress.

Today went to siong's new hse (a condo) for a swim wit siong, mk n sunny. Since I woke up late thought I going to be the latest to reach there instead when I reached there to my horror, sunny n mk juz woke up onli! -_-" lolz. Anyway, had a swim, go for steam bath bef wash up n went for dinner at causewaypoint. After dinner slack at civic plaza mac til 11.30pm den home sweet home. sianz... still gt work tml n tue, my last 2 days at SLA. argh... as July 10 is getting nearer than ever, im running out of time to enjoy! dw... Well, veri tired nw, off to rest

2008-06-15T15:55:00.002+08:00

Well, its a long time since I last update tis blog, 13 days to be exact. haix. Recently wasnt reali great for me especially ever since the incident on mon which I shall nt mention. Tat incident oso left a obstacle for me to overcome. dw x10... haix... anyway, quite last few days was veri busy wit my work oso, everyday 9 plus den left office. As im leaving my job in abt 1 week time, my superior initially told me tat he wun be given me any new assignment to do but sudden gt an assignment need to be corrected n completed urgently. The assignment actually was in charge by previous temp staff hu sudden juz left n the worst thing was the job was done reali poorly. most of the polygons r done incorrectly, the records kept was rubbish n the work was like 20% done onli. Oh my, tat temp staff reali giv me prob. Going leave soon still give me so much work to do. argh...

Well, although so many unlucky happen on me but football still lightens me up especially when ur fav team is doing so well. Euro 2008 hav started n holland played reali reali well. Thrash the world cup finalist Italy n France 3-0 or 4-1. I tink wats impressive abt Holland is nt abt the scoreline but the tactics, the formation tat beat these teams. I nv had a chance to watch the "Total Football" dutch team of 1974 n 1988 as I still haven come into tis world yet n juz a yr old to barely understand wats football. lolz. The 2 games Holland played show me hw "Total Football" is being played although its nt exactly the same "Total Football" frm 1974 n 1988 least frm wat I hav read but its close to. Breath Taking- r the words to decribe holland performance. Hopefully the Oranje can continue tis all the way to the final n win! Well, "houd omhoog het goede werk Holland!" or "keep up the gd work Holland!" in dutch.

Ytd went to adeline's bday party wit siong. Kind of feel reali bad cos came reali late. At first we were tinking whether to go take the food or nt cos the buffet setting is at the centre n surrounding it r her family, relatives n friends seated so quite paiseh to go take the food when so many pair of eyes watching u. But I guess at tat time we were too hungry so juz throw away tat thinking n help ourselves wit the food. hahaz. Well, after taking photos n cutting cake session den stay awhile den go home. Ok la, shall end it here

Happy 21st bday Adeline, stay happy n smilez always!!
thx for the invitations n u hav try ur veri best being gd host so don feel bad abt it... cheerz...!

2008-06-02T00:14:00.007+08:00

Juz came back frm Angela's Live concert at expo wit siong. Its the first time Angela held a concert in sg n oso the first time I went to watch such concert n wow, its was reali a great experience man. Her voice was reali strong n singing was reali gd as compare to other singer which I listen bef. The concert start off wit the song "梦里花". After tat came the songs which r quite high 1s like "欧若拉", "我恋爱了", "潘朵拉". Well, although quite a number of songs sung but there still a few more songs which I hope listen oso. greedy... lolz.

Other songs tat were sing,
遗失的美好,
我的最爱,
寓言,
隐形的翅膀,
喜欢你没道理,
口袋的天空,
保护色,
不想懂得,
不痛,
真的,
隐形的翅膀,
mama mama,
journey,
快乐崇拜,
如果的事 n 仨人 wit guest singer 范玮琪 n 郭静,
我不想忘记你 by 郭静,
是非题 by 范玮琪

For most period of the concert I was hav difficulties taking pics cos the reflection of the spot n im camera noob oso la. lolz. Onli until the veri last part of the concert den I manage to take some pics.

I tink the onli negative thing abt the concert was the seat. Quite squeezy n I hav to try "shrink" myself for 2hrs but anyway y bother man as long as there r gd songs n gd performance by ur fav artist to enjoy~. hahaz. Overall a great experience n truly nv disappoint me. Reali hav enjoyed the concert, $ well spent I shld say. hahaz

2008-06-01T14:29:00.003+08:00

Ytd evening went to JB wit sec friends for 1 last time as many of us r going in NS soon. 8 of us went in person tis time round as compare to the usual of 3 or 4 ppl onli. As usual when we go in JB, walk around city sq first bef going to holiday plaza den trip end wit dinner at the market there. Well, bought some games frm holiday plaza, while some of them go make the grp T.

Had a great seafood feast. Order satays, bbq stingray, crayfish, both black pepper n chilli crabs, vege, squid n cereal prawn. Tis time round we manage to eat finish all the dishes. I remeber the last time we in wit juz 4 person n the dishes were juz way too much for us. lolz. Reach home at around 12 was totally bloated n tired. lolz. Well, a great outing wit a great dinner...

cheerz...!

2008-05-27T00:18:00.003+08:00

Today went w66L gathering at newton food centre to hav dinner. The food there reali ex n the potion given is reali small sia so nt veri filling. After tat went tcc to slack but din spend much time there oso cos the cafe is closing soon. Order an Oreo Mocha Frappe n a Marble cheese cake. Well, the beverage n the cake were average onli, nt veri nice. lolz n des was super regretted ordering a drink call "mighty joe young". Although I din try it myself but those hu try it all say it taste like grass! hahaz. Today reali veri exhausted, ytd din reali slp well. Flip on bed for 3 hours bef manage to fall aslp. Maybe juz having too many things on my mind rite now... argh... I need a gd slp! hopefully later I wun hav difficulties slping again like ytd. alright, off to bed nw. nitez...

2008-05-26T01:25:00.004+08:00

Was in a foul mood today. Haix. feeling quite tired of listening to all the conflicts. At home I juz wanna get some peace, juz relax n enjoy the comfort at home but recently events within my family n relatives is starting to went over. Cant understand y people had conflicts n argument, cant they juz be responsible n settle in more diplomatic ways, be more tolerance n understanding instead of juz throwing out old issues to add 'more fire' into the already fragile situation. Although Im nt involved but still such things affected me even juz by hearing. reali tired of all tis.

argh... lots n lots of frustration which I cant seems to suppress. Juz wanna live simple, in peace. don noe hw I can achieve tis...

2008-05-24T17:40:00.000+08:00

Yesh I PASS! hahaz. Took my drving test ytd n wat a relief, reali overjoy ytd. During the warm-up session, I was still making mistakes here n there especially those major ones n my instructor told me my chances of passing is veri delicate, 50-50 onli. Dw man, veri demoralising. When I step into the room for the briefing, felt even more nervous n im the "lucky no.1" as my name was the first 1 to be called. Den drawing a test route frm the ballot box which i pick up route 6. hm... I guess familiarise the area does comes in handy as I can rember exactly hw many traffic lights or anticipating any turns ahead. Strangely, throughout the test din felt so nervous as bef, maybe im too focus on the task on hand. Well, after the test follow the tester to another room as he brief me on my mistakes during the test. First thing he said was, when I drive his neck going to break cos the car keep jerking. hahaz. Next he ask hw I control the clutch. Sudden gt tis sink feeling tat im nt gonna make it. Well, after the toking, he wrote dw 16 demerits pts n no immediate failure n lastly put tick in the "pass box". felt so overjoy n gt the urge of celebrate like the players celebrating a goal. but still I try to contain my joy la. hahaz. Oh well, gt to thank my parents, afterall they r my sponsor. lolz. Intially they were nt veri keen to sponsor me to learn. I guess cos they c me my seriousness in learning when I nv had bef so tats y they agree. lolz. oso gt to thank my instructor la, nobody to teach hw I learn hw to drive. lolz. ok la, tats all...

cheerz...!

2008-05-22T23:59:00.002+08:00

Last nite mk n say tiong come my hse watch the champions league final. Quite gd game, both side fought all the way til the end nt the game n the winner decide by the most cruel fashion- the penalty shootout. Man utd win the shootout n thus the champions league winner. congrats to them. As a rival-arsenal fan, I hate to admit it but they do deserve it to win after wat they hav achieve tis season. chelsea fan-say tiong muz be cursing mk, cos watever mk predicted was spot on. lolz.

Today accom mk go vivo as he wan to service his modem. After tat in the evening meet up wit say tiong n jia xing at jurong point watch the movie "wat happen in vegas". Its a comedy show, veri humorous show n I reali had a laugh frm start til the end. hahaz. u guys shld go watch it n laugh-out-loud. lolz.

Oh man tml is the big day, after a yr of learning, 28 hrs of practicing... it all comes dw to tml-the driving practical test. Reali reali veri nervous, when I took my O's I wasnt even as nervous as right nw. Feeling veri motivated oso. Til feel like wearing a band "bi sheng!!" like hw the Japanese motivate themselves. hahaz. Well den, shall end it here. gd luck n all the best to myself. Argh... "COME ON CLIVE, U CAN DO IT, U GONNA MAKE IT, FOCUS!!!"

2008-05-19T23:16:00.002+08:00

A veri tiring day for me. Wake up veri early at 6.30am for driving lesson. After tat went to play football wit some rp friends at yishun. Play much better than ytd, score more, assist more. Din reali run much cos the weather is reali reali super hot. Played a couple of hours onli n went eat lunch at swensen den went n took a nap. tml back to work again, argh... totally exhausted nw, I need more rest!

2008-05-18T23:35:00.002+08:00

Today play football wit my bro's friends. Veri long din play football n was hoping to hav a gd game but today din enjoy at all n reali super pissed off wit some of my bro friends. Already come so late n yet play wit tat sux attitude of don feel like playing like tat. When I play football, I expect every1 even my opponents to play properly n be serious. serious as in play wit tat passion or enjoyment rather than tat wan to play don wan to play tat kind of attitude. argh... waste of time playing today. Today was quite disappointed wit my performance oso. Although I manage to score 2 but I play so lacklustre, nt the usual standard of me -_- . Tml play wit w66L ppl n they wun disappoint me in terms of attitude so hope tml I will hav a gd game, score lots of goal n enjoy. alright tats all for today, gt to slp early tml cos driving lesson is at 7am! argh...so early... alright bye...

2008-05-16T00:07:00.005+08:00

Help! Had a hard time deciding which shoe to buy. hahaz. hm... shld I continue the 'tradition' of buying every predator series of white adidas absolado? or shld I buy the new Total 90 Shoot? or the red mercurial veloci which I hav been dreaming to hav it for quite some time. guys plz giv me some suggestion. hahaz...

The white adidas absolado...
Another view of the absolado

The Mercurial Veloci...

Total 90 Shoot...

2008-05-13T23:59:00.002+08:00

Today quite bad day for me. Din slp well last nite n reali affected me. First came late for work tis morning den the whole day was dreadful for me, cant concentrate well at work n feeling tired n headache. After work had driving lesson which watever I do whether is driving or parking or circuit, I make so many mistakes n sudden seems to forget the things I hav learnt. hopeful im able to get some later cos lately juz cant seem hav a gd slp. alright bye for nw

2008-05-11T16:44:00.003+08:00

Ok im back after more than a week to revive my dying blog. lolz. Recently hav been addicted play 1 game. I don normally so addicted to games but tis game everything time I nearly nearly going to win but in the end lose so frustrated wit the lost n my stupid determination character, I will keep playing n nv rest til I win! hahaz. So past week everyday straight after work reach home chiong my game til 3 or 4am den force myself to go slp since the next day gt work, kind of crazy man. lolz. Tis hav oso affected my focus during work which I made alot of mistakes. So ya, tats hw my life been for the past week- game~. lolz. As its may already, im getting nervous each day for my driving practical test come at the of end may. Since going NS veri soon, I reali reali cannot fail the test. haix... all my friends say easy easy la but to me its nt abt easy or nt easy. I felt my progress was quite slow n the test is getting so near automatically I giv myself stress. "cannot afford failure, die die muz pass" r the phrase in my head every nw n then. argh...

Ytd eveing went to joanne bday bbq at her relative condo. The place there is veri confusing so every1 were calling each other for directions as they were lost. So each time a person recevied a call, he or she will repeat the same phrase again n again- "backside facing lam soon building, walk up the slope on the left...". another funny thing was tat chai ling, each time she saw ppl arrive she will quickly go take pen n the card n pester tat person to sign. hahaz. hm... the bday celebration wasnt tat gd but I guess joanne hav try her best la. Well, first time since don noe hw long the swiss destiny grp outing sudden gt so many ppl n there is oso a rare guest- zhi yong. After M.I.A, no contact, no meeting, nth for 2 yrs den he sudden appear. As expected all of us were will asking him sarcastic questions where hav he been lost too cos I guess every1 were abit disgusted tat he for the sake of work n din contact us for so long. After the bday celebration, we all went to jurong pt to watch late nite movie-"speed racer". the movie was 2 hrs (quite long for such a type show" n every1 was complaining negatively abt the movie. Personally, although nt tat nice cos its too exaggerating but its nt as bad as they thought la. I still prefer to watch real race like the F1! hahaz. After tat home sweet home~

Oh bef I end here,
Happy 21st Birthday Joanne! (15/5)

hahaz. cheerz..!

2008-05-02T00:43:00.002+08:00

evening went to sherlyn's bday chalet at aloha changi. well, the place there quite "wulu" n nt as nice as the 1s at pasir ris but juz infront of the chalet is the sea view, so i guess tat the onli plus tat I could tink of. lolz. hm... din reali stay tat for long as jen n fion need to go early so after eating buffet n chit chat awhile den go off. quite ps oso, friend bday yet still so fast go off din even wait for the cutting of the cake. sianz, tml gt to go to work again. I tink the government shld declare tml holiday oso, thurs public holiday den fri go back n den its weekends again, giv prob 1, cant hav a gd long rest -_- .

2008-04-30T01:09:00.002+08:00

Juz woke up frm a nap. Tis few days hav been taking short nap n wake up in the late nite cos its arsenal match n oso champions league semi-final which I couldnt be missed. hahaz. Arsenal thrashed 6-2 against poor poor Derby. Although, its a big margin win but I still grumble cos they couldnt hav score at least 10! if nt for complacent finishing... Arsenal mathematically still in the title race but unless reali miracle happen else its juz false hope I shld say. lolz. Well, the weather is rather humid tis 2 days which doesnt affect me much since most of the time im in office but at nite its feel like Im in sauna! crazily hot man... thurs is public holiday so tat means 1 day of rest! hav looking forward eager cos kind of sick of my work. After 2 weeks, already lost the motivation to go to work. Wake up early in the morning draggin myself to work n everyday do the same assignment. sianz... no life... but still gt hang in there for 2 more mths n its seems long...

2008-04-26T01:27:00.002+08:00

YES! finally its weekend tat means no work! can slp late n don need wake up so early. Well, tink I reali need ample of rest man. Nose totally "breakdw" by the culprit- flu, somemore the office air-con is freezing which add on to my misery. sluggish at work, whole day trying to stop the "tap". hope recover asap as I wan my weekends entertainment! hahaz. As enlistment soon n I hav been tinking of going for holiday juz bef go in ns to some places far as in outside of south-east asia wit my family or if nt maybe wit friends. but til nw nth materialise, kind of disappointed n feeling abit desperate oso. juz nw hav been browsing thru the net for travel info n kind of demoralise by the prices air fare cos scare parents cant afford. wanna go holiday ar...

2008-04-24T23:49:00.004+08:00

Yoz im back! 1 week hav past since I last update. Quite lazy n tired to update, after work already dead beat. lolz. Actually nt much thing to update oso la. everyday, early morning wake up went to work, evening finish work eat dinner rest awhile den slp n the cycle start again for the next day. Hav been working at SLA for a week n so far can say work was still ok la. my desk was juz beside the manager! wah. at 1st thought was quite stress but after awhile was nth reali. the manager was quite gd n no pressure given to finish my work as long as I juz do my work. Well, my work can be quite frustrating at times cos if the resulted shape is wrong den gt to redo the whole process again- c map for tiny tiny measurement, compute the info frm the map den 'draw' onto com. By the time I quit the job, I tink my degree going to get worst-to near blindness, cos the map details reali reali veri small. everyday c maps, numbers n shapes, starting to hav phobia for these liao. lolz. although the job nt physical demanding but mentally its VERI. wah, lunch time oso another prob. wide variety food but super hard to find seats! 1st day, I saw so many empty seats n I thought finding seat shldnt be a prob. den I saw packets of tissues paper placed on the seat which my colleague told tis is culture here. place a packet of tissue paper on seat n its means some1 bk the seat already. I was like "wah, like tat oso can?!" -_-" tissue paper packet = "reserved". hahaz. overall quite a gd experience working there.

1 last shot? when decided to start afresh but its already too late...

2008-04-17T23:42:00.002+08:00

First day at work today. Well, newbie, still learning the ropes. my job was to draw n update shapes frm the physical map into the com. sound simple but the process was super tedious. Although quite tedious but Im beginning to enjoy the job n looking forward to work until... received enlistment letter moments ago... dw... called up for "international duty" on July 10. Was hoping tat I go in much later cos wan to at least work 3, 4 mths first bef go in but sianz... 84 more days left of freedom... juz realise tat all tis while I nv treasure time, so many things still haven done yet. dw... anyway, suan le ba, forget it. JUZ GO IN...

2008-04-15T02:15:00.002+08:00

im employED! finally gt a job... morning went for interview initially Im nt quite optimistic abt the chances of being selected by as the manager was quite concern abt my enlistment date but after sometime in the day I was informed tat I gt the job. lolz. well, another 2 more days to rot at home bef start work. The job involve alot of maths so sianz la, going face maths again -_- .

2008-04-14T01:03:00.002+08:00

Today play soccer during the noon. crazy timing to play, run awhile n Im totally out of breath. ages since I play so vigorously. well, score a couple of goals but oso miss lots of chances. -_- After soccer went for driving lesson. Feel so tired man after all the activities today, somemore ytd slp for 4 hrs onli. Tml going for job interview. hm... although its nt the first time go for job interview but still abit nervous cos its going to be a 'formal' interview nt like the ones I went bef which r veri casual n 'anyhw'. lolz. ok la, nth else. im off...

argh... bitterly disappointed tat Arsenal out of title race... dw...

2008-04-12T02:32:00.003+08:00

Ok, as requested by mk. juz put up the blog archives.

Ytd went to science centre to work while today went to changi v to work agan. Thought tat last sunday suppose my last day but my boss giv prob, pursue me to do 2 more days. today work was super sianz, frm 4pm to 10 pm practically juz stone. reali bore til the pt tat I fall aslp. lolz. hardly any customer today, don noe y the boss still need me work -_- . tired... reali veri tired...

2008-04-08T23:32:00.002+08:00

Today went to submit application form wit kel, des n alan. after tat go here n there but without any purpose bef went home early to hav dinner wit family. well, went out half a day onli I already feeling super exhausted. reali tired man... past week I hardly had any peaceful slp. go out to work or interview in the morning, gt shock by phone calls ring frm hr argency, warzone in the hse as usual "declare" by my unreasonable mother n retaliate by my rebel bro. hopefully tonite I can slp well n peacefully which I desperately need...

2008-04-07T00:08:00.004+08:00

Didnt had a gd day at work. argh...quite pissed off. first time gt ppl question my working attitude, somemore behind my back. I was arranging the fridge n doing accounts instead gt accused of slacking at 1 corner by a colleague frm china. "hey come on la, if I wan to slack I wouldnt hav come all the way frm cck to changi juz to slack at work..." shit those china ppl. when my boss told me tat, I was so pissed off. anyway forget it, my last day oso don wan bother much, juz do finished n go off. n oso tink highly unlikely I would stay on due to various factors unless like in fm player contract offer "it would take larger offer to hire tis player". hopefully, boss come up wit a fantastic offer to me. hehe...

2008-04-06T00:56:00.003+08:00

super exhausted nw. today during lunch time was veri busy other tat, the rest of the day at work was terriblely hard to pass-by cos hardly any soul come to eat. so most of the time was like sitting there staring the sea which I even manage to fall aslp. lolz. argh... the boss pursue me to work longer, nw i gt 3 jobs need to consider... dilemma...

2008-04-05T01:31:00.003+08:00

Today's work was quite ok except for the travel distance to work place which is crazy! gt to travel all the way frm cck to changi village -_- torturing man. luckily its onli for 3 days. well, the buffet setting for the 3 days is at changi sailing club. basically today's event was a gathering of caucasians in memory of a friend hu hav juz passed away. u all may tink the whole event muz be reali dw actually its nt. actually its sort of like 'happy' (don noe hw describe it) tat the deceased hav pass away peaceful, happily to heaven... of cos there was 1 moment of solemness when the speaker is reading the dw words by the friends to the deceased. quite emotional... an eye-opener for me. my jobs for the whole day is either wiping dishes or open wine bottles for guest, quite sianz oso. argh... tink today I stand n wipe dishes for too long, nw gt a slight recurring to my old ankle injury. hopefully, recover asap... ok nth to say, work work tml n another journey to east again... dw...

2008-04-03T23:38:00.002+08:00

Today yet another boring day. Afternoon went for driving lesson. din drive well today, alot mistakes, din check here n there n nearly nearly meet accident. tats bad man, recently already hav nightmare of me meeting accidents. -_- wonder like tat hw to pass. reach home feeling tired take nap den after dinner tired take a nap again. wah... recently feeling tired so easily n keep slping. -_- like wasting my life away thru. lolz. Well, finally next 3 days I gt sth don hav rot at home - work work! hahaz. its juz a temporary 3 day job onli after tat jobless again. sianz... anyway better than nth rite...hahaz

2008-04-03T01:35:00.002+08:00

Nt feeling great tis 2 days. First, cant seems to find the job tat I wan cos im waiting for ns enlistment n the employers r nt keen on giv me short term commitment, second.. all my friend were either busy working or studying so no activities other rotting at home. Third reali veri sianz at home til reach the pt tat my mind goes haywire... sigh... thought tat I hav done yet but yet again, it come back to haunt me again. Sometimes it feels so real, I manage to curb it alot of times but tis time juz overwhelmed n gt myself mix-up again. I jolly well noe its veri clear to me still... I question myself, was I wrong? am I naive? will I regret? I don noe... bef I take any route I had to be clear abt myself first... which I don noe when oso. sigh...

2008-04-02T15:44:00.005+08:00

Juz gt back frm W66L chalet ytd n was super exhausted to blog so decided to update my happening during chalet today.

Chalet is at Aranda country club n its quite nice, the unit is like ur personal home, a big living room, balcony, dining table, kitchen n 2 bedrooms. Day 1 start off wit bbq n I tink the shortest bbq session I had cos every1 so fast full n many of them prefer to go back to our unit as its air-condition, much cooler to stay indoors rather than stay outdoor in the humid nite. Some of them play mahjong while the others juz hang arounf mingle wit their own stuff while I watch tv awhile bef went to balcony to pass around the football wit des. Wah, W66L seems to like to do stun 1, while I was playing passing wit des justin n the others sudden push the balcony door, pop out a cake n sing bday song to celebrate my belated bday. Totally stun yet again, I was trying to catch my breathe n processing, "wah, wat has happen" hahaz. thx guys.... After singing, took a few pics den every1 go on to do their own stuff. Well, the rest of the nite I was either playing or teaching others to play mahjong. hahaz. so sianz, when I play myself I lost but when I teach others, others win big. maybe my luck is for nt myself but for teaching. hahaz. Without realising hw time passes by n its morning daylight.

Like any chalet, I try nt to slp cos I wan to enjoy fully every single min of the chalet. While almost every1 went to slp, I was watching morning news on tv n play com game on my laptop. lolz. After tat went to buy breakfast bef handy came wit his Wii. By tat time kel n des came back to chalet while others woke up so every1 was veri enthu abt playing Wii cos its the 1st time they play. For me, after breakfast I was reali tired so juz watch they play. I was trying to force myself nt to slp, wah, mental torture sia but in the end reali cant take it anymore, lay dw some cushion on the floor n slp. Well, slp onli for 1hr plus bef woke up by the sound of excitment by them "Wii-ing". hahaz. I stone awhile bef we all decided to go out for outdoor activities. Some went for cycling, some wild wild wet while the rest Football!! hahaz. I feel like cycling but u all noe me la, can nv resist the temptation of playing football especially 3 mths I nv touch football even cant resist more. hahaz. By the time we reach there, there are already some chinese playing there so no choice we cant play among ourselves but to challenge them.

--Football incident--
We were losing a couple of goals bef we fire up n score abt 5 goals. Nw the game start to become ugly. Acutally the players of the opposition team were normal other 1 player hu hav a BIG ego starting to find trouble cos I tink initally he thought we r a bunch of noobs n underestimated us but sudden we score back alot of goals n he was like frustrated of losing. First he purposely kick far away for us to collect, shlder burge des off the ball, telling his team to heck care n juz play physical since me n kel (other than des n singhao) were small size. I was enjoying, scoring goals assisting my teammate, defending bef gt 1 moment which I find it veri amusing, he tell me took off my shoes as I was the onli 1 wearing. I was like huh? cos I don rember tat I ever step on ppl toes or kick any1 whether accidently or purposely(which I will nv ever do tat). So we all were puzzled n ask y do I hav to took off, he say cos unfair. When he say tat I wan to laugh man, wat kind of excuse sia. Its nt like I accidently step or kick but u losing n giv lame excuses? joke sia. So I thought to myself, "ok lo fine, take out lo without it I still can beat u n WIN for my team". I was abt to bef the rest of the opposition players tell me nvm, don care him juz get on wit the game. so the game cont nw after tat incident the more determine I wan to WIN. The game reach boiling pt when tat guy purposely juz ram the ball at des den singhao juz blow off shout at tat guy. The guy sarcasticlly say its was accident. wah, nth to say, cant argue wit him oso cos the rest of us play football veri long time understand tat ball no eyes naturally will accidently hit ppl. I start get to real piss off, I was trying to enjoy n tis guy giv prob n nw my teammate giv prob oso. I hated fights n quarrels in football. I understand singhao wan to stand up for des but its nt right way la so I had tell off singhao to focus on winning n nt get into confrontation, revenge by winning them alot of goals nt fight back. In the end we won big which I was satisfied tat we so call gt our revenge.

Ok, enuff of tat... back to chalet. After football rest awhile went White Sand Swensen for dinner den went back chalet for mahjong session which I won to recover some of my losses but overall still lose -_- anyway, nvm la, most importantly is enjoy which I did. hahaz. after 1 round of mahjong was rather sick of it so play Wii which I find it veri interactive den play com game n watch show bef its daybreak again, prepare n go home n hav a gd gd slp... hahaz

2008-03-29T00:17:00.002+08:00

Ytd accom xm go job interview. Like any jobless person desperatly looking for jobs, he hav been complaining sg so many job opportunity n the 1s he found r either need higher qualification or the pay is unreasonable low. Hearing his frustration sudden makes me realise clearly the harsh reality of tis world- qualification nt higher enuff den job opportunities will be limited n thus sometimes lousy pay oso. Well, tat job in the end he din take up cos the pay was unreasonable for full-time. Since we near chinatown, we decided to go eat the famous outram park "char kway tiao". Hav been craving for it a long long time, so far the best I ever ate. wah... imagine onli, I already cannot take it. hahaz. but...Dw la! we were too late cos the store hav already close. so instead went to vivo city Secret Recipe to hav our dinner. Well, first time went there eat n the food was nt bad, I tink the cheese cake was quite nice. After tat walk around n xm came across a adidas which he was super tempted to buy but in the end he curb his temptation cos he haven found a job yet. lolz. First time saw his control himself, normally he saw sth he like he straight buy already. hahaz

Today went amk hub wit xm again. lolz. He finally gt a job today, afew more days for him to enjoy bef like busy working like every1. Argh... toking abt job I dw, still haven found 1 yet it when all my friends r busy working n no activities. -_- Ok back to amk hub, well nth much to do oso other eating n eating n eating. lolz. den go home...

sianz... everytime I passby, juz cant help it but sigh...

2008-03-26T23:26:00.002+08:00

Today went for sch graduation ceremony. Wear the robe, go up the stage, receive diploma frm the guest n im offically graduated. lolz. After tat went town wit kel n yi duan to meet justin n kailin to discuss abt bbq stuff bef went to coffee bean to meet handy. Slack around awhile den went for dinner. wah, we were having alot prob finding vegetarian food around town for yi duan. we search for quite sometime bef finally found it at 1 tiny stall at lucky plaza. After dinner went far east walk around den home sweet home.

Wah, juz bef go home, w66L friends giv me a big big surprise. Intially while we were walking around at lucky plaza, justin bought a watch for himself den sudden as we all abt to go home, he review tat actually the watch is a bday gift for me frm W66L ppl n today I wasnt suppose to join them as they r planning to buy today n surprise me at chalet but kel forgotten it n ask me come along go meet justin. hahaz. at tat moment when justin review to me I was totally stun sia- speechless... hahaz. anyway...

reali thx alot!! justin, kelvin, desmond, kai lin, yi duan, handy, yi suan, pei yi

hahaz. I oso need to thx to those hu hav wish me- xm, siong, joanne, sunny, ngor, sijie, bifen, ben, sing hao, conray n ade & her friends

wah, first time i gt so many ppl to thx. hahaz. Im reali veri happy for all the wishes n gifts frm friends. Definitely the BEST bday I ever had. hahaz. Thx Alot Every1 !!~

2008-03-26T03:26:00.000+08:00

Its past 12...n im 21!! happy bday to myself, hahaz. Aiya, anyway nth to excite abt oso, in fact its getting more stressful, more headache n alot more responsibilities for me ahead in life. Gt to seriously start tinking abt wat lies ahead of me, career, family la, basically 6 letter word- Future. Sianz, wish still in sec sch, everyday play football don need to bother so much but hey, human are always growing n learning, so well... cant always look back or remain at one age, gt to look ahead. Tis yr bday was the best tat I ever had, reali appreciate wat my friends hav done so I shall say again reali thx alot! hahaz. every yr hav been making the same 3 wish but yet none hav come true, dw... lolz. Well, tis yr still make the same 3 wish, hopefully tis yr at least 1 will came true... hahaz

Tml RP graduation ceremony which means tml offically im off frm RP!! lolz. Well, gt both gd n bad memories in RP la, so cant reali say i dislike or reali like rp oso. Anyway, after poly its the next stage in life will be- NS..."left, right, left..." lolz. Ok... time for me to slp... zooooom..... to bed...

2008-03-25T23:00:00.001+08:00

counting dw... 1hr more... hahaz

2008-03-24T02:13:00.005+08:00

Last few days hav been at chalet wit swiss destiny ppl, oso celebrated xm n my 21st bday. Firstly had BBQ session, after tat cutting of bday cake bef the bday bash- "tau pok" hahaz. xm kena caught 1st, I try to mingle wit the crowd hoping I wun be caught but in the end gt drag out by the swiss destiny gang n gt bash up tgt wit xm. hahaz. After tat cont BBQ bef joining the rest for games such as heart attack n indian poker, forfeit for losing - drink. Lei cant drink so xm n I gt to drink for Lei oso since we bday boys. hahaz. I reali hav enjoy the whole celebration- well, I shld say over enjoy oso cos I gt drunk -_- . The first time I gt drunk n the feeling was reali reali terrible man. argh... hahaz. anyway, lastly-

reali thx every1- for coming n the presents~
xm, siong, lei, st, mk, sunny, joanne, chai ling, ngor, christine, fz, zx, ah tai, ai tee, pei xiang, shirly, zen... hopefully I din miss out any1. lolz

I reali hav enjoyed the whole celebration wit u guys, reali thx alot!!

cheerz...!

2008-03-21T02:16:00.002+08:00

Well, hav been quite awhile since I last blog. Past few days hav been staying at home secluding myself n ROT. Super bore... everyday either eat, slp, play game or watch tv, nth else to do. argh... I NEED A JOB!! everyday mum keeping nagging all sort of negative issues, reali bth but everything hav to wait til after the upcoming activities I hav. Tml going chalet finally don hav to seclude myself at home. lolz. going to enjoy all out- UP~ cheerz..! hahaz

2008-03-17T00:22:00.002+08:00

Ytd went overnite cycling wit mk n xm. It has been a long long time since I last go last distance cycling. First cycle to Yew Tee to watch match bef cycling up north to the park beside RP n slack awhile. After tat cycle all the way Jurong East for breakfast n cycle back to cck for home sweet home. Ok la, quite tiring but nt as tough n crazy as the last time which I cycle bef for 13hrs!! Ouch, my buttocks... hahaz

2008-03-13T17:26:00.003+08:00

Went to IMM ytd wit xm n siong to celebrate xm bday n oso to checkout the prices of bbq food for the chalet. First went to pepper lunch for dinner n happen to saw say tiong. Next went "Wan Zai" for dessert bef go Giant checkout price. Wah. sianz, tink going to hav food wastage again for the bbq cos xm too up already, order so much. lolz. anyway, like he said scare there r too much rather than scare there nt enuff food for everyone so let juz c hw. After checking, siong went home cos he hav sch the next day while me n xm meet mk for supper. chit chat til 4am bef home sweet home. While on the way home saw alot soldiers guarding the perimeter of forest. heard frm mk which they doing tis cos of tat Mr Selamat. First time saw sg so desperate man hunting a criminal. Anyway hopeful arrest tis Mr selamat asap cos tis idiot criminal is spoiling my plans (plan to go JB but due the long trafic jam cos heavy security check) hahaz. oh 1 more thing,

Happy Bday xinming (12/3)... hahaz

cheerz..!

2008-03-10T02:05:00.002+08:00

Well, went to work today...tis time is round at "Yosero" an Indonesia cuisine restaurant. wah, Im like "bao dao wan" worker. Everything oso I do, waiter la, cleaner la, storeman la, distribute flyers la- "bao ka liao" (hokkien) -_- . ok la, pay reasonably gd cos most of the time I was reali bore, sit there catching flies. hahaz. The restaurant juz reopen onli so veri few patrons (which I counted 11 onli). well, although pay was gd but din enjoy it cos the job was reali too boring. hm... gt to continue lookout for other jobs...

juz some thoughts...

sometimes nt doing anything is better than doing cos do le, the return u gt is all juz huge disappointment...

ok. nth else to say... im off...

2008-03-07T01:00:00.003+08:00

Went to work today for "flavours n Spices" (a catering company). Today job is to do lunch buffet setting at Ministry of Foreign Affairs for tml lunch. Heard its juz 30 mins lunch but yet need to set so many things -_- . Although work for 3hrs onli but yet feel so tired. I tink maybe cos too used to slp for 9hrs everyday so ytd slp less 9hrs n feel tired. tml job for dw... haven set finish so tml early morning muz be there to finish it n oso need to serve beverage during the lunch. argh... ma fan. Well, nth new to me oso, do bef service line. Hopeful tml my job will go smoothly n received my pay $_$ hahaz. off to slp for nw...

2008-03-05T15:44:00.002+08:00

Well, its quite some time since I last blog due to the penang trip n laziness when Im back in sg. lolz. Ok since I nth to do, I shall tok abt the happening during my penang trip...

nt many frm my sec friends went for the trip, onli 4 went- me, xm, siong n jx (jia xing). We left during the nite so tat we can reach penang the next day in morning. Its a 9hrs coach frm sg to penang in between there r stops for toilet breaks. Wah, the 9hrs coach ride was a torment, reali super long sia. The whole ride I was looking at my watch counting dw. keep telling myself hw many hrs more til reach destination. lolz. Worst was I purposely din hav enuff slp so tat I could slp during the coach ride but den onli manage to hav 2 hrs of light slp. Felt so relief when the coach was crossing the Penang bridge cos finally im reaching Penang. The end of torment n the start holiday adventure...

Day 1~
We reach there abt 8am like tat but we can onli check in our hotel at 10am so the first thing we do is eat breakfast as after such a long ride we were all super hungry. eat "bak kut teh" which tat siong keep emphasising bef we went there tat we MUZ try. lolz. For me, its the 1st time tat I eat "bak kut teh" so don noe hw to judge nice or nt but personally, quite nice la. After B.K.T session we check in our hotel. It’s a four star hotel which xm they all rated as (although brocures say its 5 star) call "Evergreen Laurel Hotel". We were abit disappointed la cos we purposely book the rooms wit sea view but den the view was blk by tall trees, dw... There were alot of attractions tat we wan to go but den raining so we r limited to those indoor 1s. We noe tat its nt worth it if we take taxi for the own trip so we decided to rent a car n navigate on our own. Dw... tats when all the prob starts. Ok la, we went to the Toy museum first since its juz a 15mins car ride frm our hotel. The theme of the toy museum there was quite different frm Sg's. Sg is manly on veri old toys while the toys there r all modern toys.

Next attraction we go was "Kek Lok Si temple" or the locals there call it "Ji Le Shi Miao". we took abt 2hrs to reach there cos we juz lost our way. Siong was the 1 driving n Im the who is doing nativagation. Im quite confident in my navigation ability but den I reali gt to admit defeat.The traffic n the roads there reali veri messy which is so so different frm Sg. As we were hungry n still yet to find our way, we decided to stop hav our meal n sought help frm the locals. Wah, first time I hav feeling of culture difference. Although there r more chinese than malays in Penang which is similar to Sg but the chinese there mainly speak the hokkien dialect although they sometimes do speak chinese n their accent is veri diff frm Sg. We all had a hard time trying understand wat they r saying. There oso hav some simliar food in sg like "rojak" la, "fried kway tiao" la, "popiah" but the taste all so different frm sg. I had difficulties eating the food there. Ok, back to the topic which we lost our way. Well, lucky we manage to gt a local aunty help to direct us there. Super dw... on the way we met accident. The traffic there is reali anyhw 1 n driver there were quite reckless. The car (car A) infront of us sudden brake to avoid another car which juz turn into our road recklessly. Cos the car A sudden brake n the road was wet, we couldnt brake in time n bang into the car A. We all reali reali stun dao, keeping telling ourselves "jia lat, tis time we r doom". Nobody was injure n the cars doesnt hav serious damage other than maybe unseen scratches. The driver come out of the car to check the extent damage n we keep apologizing. Lucky I tink cos no serious damage so the driver say nvm, its ok. But the whole incident left a veri dw mood among us for the rest of the day. n finally we reach the "Kek Lok Si temple". The place is build on the mountain, there consist of a temple n a 9 storey n oso there a big big statue of "Guan Yin" which we cant explore cos renovation. We around the temple n climb up the pagoda. The view on top of the pagoda is reali nice, u could c the contrast of Penang, the buzzing city of george town (capital for penang) n the kampong style backward area of air hitam n oso Penang hill. After tat we decided to went back to our hotel cos the incident n oso every1 was feeling weary cos nt enuff slp. Xm they all swear tat no matter hw ex the taxi fare is, they will juz take cos we juz simply cant navigate on our own. Hav a rest at hotel bef nite time went to hav dinner at a seafood restaurant. Wah, first time I eat such a luxurious dinner, crabs, lobster, ostrich meat n those reali huge types of prawns... the prawns n ostrich meat was reali dw cos the potion given was reali small til i tink enuff for onli 2 person. -_- After dinner walk around at the shopping centre call "Guney Plaza" n back to hotel rest. Overall I tink day 1 wasnt a reali enjoying.

Day 2~
Day 2 was quite a fun...Starting went to beach to play water sports. Play Jet Ski n Parachute. Basically the parachute thing is 1 or 2 person will be tie to a parachute n the parachute is tie to a speed boat which the boat will cruise around n u juz enjoy the sea breeze in the air. I enjoy the Jet Ski more cos first time ride on Jet Ski n the feeling of cruising at such a fast speed on sea. 2 words to describe it- Cool n Great!! hahaz. After tat hav lunch bef move on to visit 2 temples. 1 is a Burmese while another is sleeping buddha temple. By the time we finish sight seeing its was quite late to visit other attractions so went back to rest n enjoy the hotel facilities bef having dinner at Guney Plaza.

Day 3~
Day 3 was quite hectic for us cos there r still alot attractions which we haven go yet. Our journey for the day start wit the bird park. Wah, the bird park was reali jia lat man, quite run dw. We all go there feed mosquito n juz any normal mosquito, big 1s commando type sia. lolz. Next went a 18th century fort called fort cornwallis. Nt much things there other exhibitions on history of the fort n penang n cannons oso. After the fort cornwallis, we went to the snake temple. Basically its juz a temple in front n a snake farm behind the temple which is privately own. Went around c different types of snake, venomous n non-venomous de. Wah, they even hav king cobra the longest venomous snake in the world. The staff there r nt trained so wonder hw they can handle so many dangerous snakes. We oso took some photo n were quite scare to pic wit the python cos its was quite big. lolz. Next we move on to the War museum which I find the most interesting attractions among so many tat we went. The whole place was quite big n its took us 2hrs to finish exploring. We were like travel back in time to during those days of World War II. We even try walking inside the tunnels (use as escape route during those times) to reali get the feel of it. Well, creepy I shld say cos its totally darkenss. In one of the rooms, there were even bullet hole still left on the wall even after 60 over yrs!! There r bullet holes concentrated on 1 part of the wall so I could imagine tat some soldiers were killed at tat spot by machine guns. There oso show the atrocities done by Japanese soldiers n the torture tools they use. argh... curse the japanese soldiers during tat time. They gt their retribution in the end (dropping of atomic bomb) but still innocent lives r lost. sad... Anyway overall, I felt its reali fascinating n astonishing. Reali worth seeing although feed by commando mosquito. hahaz. After the war museum went to the Chocolate Mansion or the Chocolate Boutique. There sell 50 to 60 different kinds of choco. Although there r so many kinds but I juz bought 3 or 4 nia while tat siong siao 1. Like everything oso pick n put into his basket den after paid le den realise he buy too many. lolz. N finally we gt back to our hotel n hav gd rest. We were planning to hav a nice dinner de but xm say he was nt feeling well (which he later told us he fake de -_-). So we went without him den after tat say we ps him, go eat without him -_-" . lolz. During the nite we went to a pub called Soho Square to watch football match n hav drinks. I tink it looks more like a club than a pub. First time go such places n I reali cannot tahan the blasting music. When we came out tat time I like deaf, hearing gt prob. argh...

The next day pack our stuff n go thru the tormenting 9hrs coach ride again n back to Sg... Well, there r some ups n dws during the trip n alot of activites which I first time experience it. So many things we wan to do yet so little time which we keep saying when we were on our way home. lolz. Overall, did enjoy the trip n quite a memorable. Well, hope gt another opportunity to travel overseas for holidays again. hahaz...

cheerz...!

(shall upload some pics after I complie everything)

2008-02-27T17:24:00.002+08:00

leaving in a couple hours time for holidays in penang wit my friends. Well, hav been looking forward to tis trip for quite some time, nt juz for the enjoyment but oso an opportunity for to reali take a break, breathe in some fresh air. alot of things hav happen which frankly speaking im still feeling dw over til nw n I hav been repressing it for quite some time. Its the first time going overseas holiday wit my friends so hopefully I will reali enjoy it (UP~ all the the way.... which my friends always say. lolz) n oso... come back take off tat mask, be a even stronger person...

ENJOY~

off for Penang frm 27/2 - 2/3

2008-02-24T17:08:00.008+08:00

Ytd went c the Singapore Air Show wit mk, xm n siong. Well, the whole outing kind of disappointing. When we reach pasir ris, we were all stun. The queue for the shuttle bus is reali veri long man, cant even c wheres the end of the queue! so u could imagine hw crowded it was. Since we wan to watch the main highlight of the show (which the planes perform stunts in the air) so we decided to book n take cab there. I tink every1 there has the same objective so even cab were oso fully booked. Although we did manage to gt a cab but next thing is even worst, traffic jam! dw la... The roads leading to the exhibition centre were jam n we stuck for like 1hr plus. Well, when we finally reach the place, the cab fare was $25!! crazy man. stuck in the traffic jam so eventually we miss the performance. even more dw... So by the time we reach we were abit sianz diao already. Ok la, lucky I still able to c the plane tat I hope to c... the A380. Some of the pics I took...

hahaz. coincident, my friends r in the pic... spot them out. lolz

The front view.... oh my... look at length of its wingspan...

The A380 is "Greener, Cleaner, Quieter, Smarter"... oh reali..?

First time saw the plane in close up n oh my... tell u wat, the sheer GIGANTIC size of tat plane juz absolutely blow u away. lolz. Well, oso saw other planes like fighter jets, private jet n helicopter la, big army cargo planes la n gt 1 collect weather data plane which can fly right into the "eye" of the hurricane! reali fascinating. Saw so many static display planes but sadly din saw the planes performing stunts in the air which we came for. dw. lolz. The air show ends at 5pm after tat went marina sq eat dinner at Lerk Thai bef going chevrons watch match.

Quite pissed off, Arsenal conceed a last min penalty goal cos lapse of concentration. Argh... in the end Arsenal draw 2-2 which Arsenal could hav won. Wah, I feel so absolutely sick to stomach when I saw hw the opposition player broke Eduardo's leg. I believe those who witness will feel disgusted by it. Sad for Eduardo, well hopeful he recover well n comeback as an even stronger player n play for Arsenal again. All the best Eduardo...

2008-02-20T19:13:00.006+08:00

Nt feeling great today, tink eat too much prawns n over enjoy breeze. starting to feel abit sick n caught a cold. argh... worst things juz keep knocking on my door.

Juz gt my back result today n guess wat? I PASS FYP!! worries for result finally end. lolz. Although pass my fyp but my overall gpa drop by 0.1 n juz barely pass 1 of my modules. Well, can onli blame myself, din work hard n no motivation at all... Anyway at least tats is sth for myself to cheer abt after recent events... haix...

on & off... so disappointed wit myself... haix...

2008-02-20T16:07:00.000+08:00

Ytd was reali long day for me but quite enjoyable for me oso. Went w66L outing to celebrate justin n desmond bday. 1pm accompany desmond go queensway as he wanted to buy jersy. While looking around the store, 1 thing immediate caught my eye... tis...

(similar design to tis but its indoor sole..)

Oh my! its the latest Mercurial Vapor IV for indoors!! checked the price tag its $72... reali reali tempted to buy man! but... argh... current quite broke. lolz. need to use the $ for my upcoming penang trip. dw... hahaz. Well, curb the temption for nw til after the trip find a job, gt $ le den BUY! muhahahaz.

After des shop finish went to meet up the rest of w66L friends had lunch at J8 1st bef go 'prawning'. Well, its the first time I ever go 'prawning' n its was quite an interesting experience for me. caught 1 reali small 1 which hardly hav any flesh to eat -_- but oso caught quite few big 1s, monster kill! hahaz. After prawning for 3hrs, we bbq n eat all the prawns tat we caught. Wah, so many prawns eat until we all gt phobia for eating it prawns nw. lolz. Next went to hav dinner, chit chat around bef every1 home sweet home while I went to siong hse ton overnite to watch match n finally reach home at around 6 plus am. Overall did enjoy myself, well finally...

happy bday my 2 friends- Justin n Desmond... cheerz...!

2008-02-19T00:43:00.003+08:00

haix... each day at home is like living hell... still gt 7 more days til penang trip, reali cant wait for the trip come soon... haix... back to square 1 again...

2008-02-17T23:49:00.002+08:00

Ytd went to punggol end to enjoy breeze after tat went the newly open T3. wow, T3 was reali nice man especially the architechture design but the view malling was abit disappointing cos cant c thru de so cant even c the plane -_- . When I was looking at the departure gate sudden had tis thought burging thru the gate n depart frm sg. I tink maybe recently too dw le so thought of tat anyway juz a crazy onli la. lolz. After tat meet up wit mk n xm to go siong hse watch match overnite. man u vs arsenal. arsenal lose reali badly nt juz the score but oso the performance. man u was nt exceptionally gd but the whole arsenal team juz non-exsist, like the whole team din turn for the game. woeful is the word to describe the performance. hopefully tat defeat serve as a wake up call for them. ok... tats all

2008-02-17T21:53:00.005+08:00

Ytd went out the whole day juz to prevent frm myself going berserk at home.
Shattered dreams...

Haix...recently felt exceptionally dw. Today felt slightly better to start blog dw the feelings n thinkings tat I had. haix... Yet again, I being force to face up wit reality. Alot of went thru my mind in recent days. I always hav tis belief tat I could change things, wait til the veri day... but sadly, no... I was wrong... all wrong... some things no matter hw hard u try, hw strong u stand by ur belief, u juz cant change anything. At times I wonder was it tat I hav nt done gd enuff or hav i done sth wrong? I hav oso ask myself countless of "why?". Although I hav prepared for it but still when its does actually happen, its was reali reali hard to accept it, reali hard to swallow tis big disappointment dw. I reali appreciate n grateful for the experience but yet alot of times im always on negative side. Im quite disappointed tat I still don noe the truth but since if it wasn't mean for me to noe abt den tats nth I can do oso. Reality is always harsh but yet I always hav to face up to. Was all tis serve as a punishment for my past mistakes or was its for a better future? punishment? maybe... better future? I dare nt tink abt it. Friends told me to look on the brighter side but time n time again its always the dark tat I hav seen. Maybe I can onli c other's achievements n nt for myself. I hav already resign to fate... don feel like opening my door ever again. I don noe whether I still gt the courage again, don noe I can still be strong again, maybe I will be able pick up after awhile yet maybe I will nv able to pick up again. I cannot run away n instead had to face up wit reality. Well, I understand tat no matter wats happen life still goes on, life doesnt stop the clock for u let u dw. The road ahead of me is reali veri difficult n veri rocky but I gt no choice, no other option other than forcing myself to walk tat path. Hopefully I don stuck at tis position for too long, move on quickly n being the normal me again. still had wishes n dreams but I don hav much hope for those to be realised. haix...

gan xie for many things...
ke wang, xi wang, shi wang, jue wang...

2008-02-16T02:51:00.002+08:00

Veri exhausted today. Din slp well cos tat bad dream. Went for driving lesson bef going back sch juz to pay lib fine of $1.80 -_- . Ok! Penang trip is almost confirmed. evening went to JP to book our transportation n accommodations after tat went to a coffee near xm hse to eat zhi char n after tat went home.

quite mixed-up. has the time comes sooner than expectated...? i don noe... haix

2008-02-15T17:14:00.002+08:00

End of feb soon which means getting result soon. last nite had a veri bad dream... in the dream I received my transcript n I saw "FYP-->11/26 marks" which oso means fail, I was so shocked til holding the transcript n go crashing dw on my knees. I was awake to reality after tat moment n sweating somemore. Oh my... wat bad dream but anyway in reality, the transcript juz show grades onli. Don noe is it a sign tat im going to fail my FYP... argh... I certainly hope, wish, pray NT...

2008-02-14T01:20:00.002+08:00

2nd day of rotting at home after tat meet lim for a drink. I tink i go out too often, nw a days stay at home for 2 hrs onli I already bth. At home reali bore til craze man. Nt feeling great today, quite dw. haix... maybe im was wrong for everything... Alot of times i try to be positive but sometimes its reali veri difficult. haix...

anyway...

Today valentine's day so wish every1 Happy Valentine's Day n enjoy tis special occasion wit ur loves one whether its ur partner or family or even friends.

enjoy~ cheerz...

2008-02-12T01:05:00.000+08:00

Juz back home frm outing wit W66L ppl. Eat vegetarian food at Aljunied for lunch bef meeting the rest n watch movie "Sweeny Todd" at The Cathay. The movie was dw la n i gt bluff by des, say alittle blood onli but instead in the show the blood gush out like free-flow. -_- gruesome man, hahaz. After went to fortune centre to eat vegetarian food again for dinner. -_- . after dinner den go bugis junction watch friends play arcade bef go starbucks hav a drinks n end the day. First time in my whole 20 yrs tat i hav vegetarian food for whole day n im surprise tat i make such an exception cos as every1 noes i muz hav meat for every meal without fail so i nv like vegetrian food. hahaz. ok la, i shld say the food was ok but still, I still find it veri weird n abit bth without meat. hahaz. Overall I enjoy it although feeling abit tired thru out the outing.

2008-02-10T15:38:00.000+08:00

Juz reach home tis home at around 7.30am after movie marathorn at Marina Sq wit lim, st, xm, mk. 3 movies tat we watch- "kung fu dunk", "ah long Pte Ltd" n "CJ7". I onli join them for "ah long" n "CJ7" cos din reali like jay chou movie. lolz. personal perception... Anyway out of the 2 movies I watch "CJ7" was most dull, although tat were some parts which is quite interesting but overall quite dull. "ah long" was super funny sia, the whole movie laugh til bth. u guys shld go watch it. hahaz. After movie marathorn slack at esplanade n along sg river bef went mac hav breakfast n home sweet home.

felt so dumb n had worries...
but there r alot of times which I couldnt explain it "Y?" myself. sigh...

2008-02-07T00:29:00.000+08:00

XIN NIAN KUAI LE!! hope u ppl out there hav success in watever things u n always health. hahaz. HUAT n UP la!!! hahaz.

2008-02-05T02:24:00.000+08:00

Came back home at around 12am. Today went quite a few places to get cny clothes wit W66L ppl. Initally went to Tampines find but din find wat we wan so went dw to raffles city n marina sq to shop around. Yes! Finally get my hands on the maroon colour Arsenal T-shirt of my size. muhahahaz. ARSENAL!! Anyway. after tat went to AMK s-11 to hav dinner den go home. I still haven finish spring cleaning yet recently still keep going out. Sianz... 2 rooms to clean n I onli done 2 drawers -_- T.T . 2 more days to CNY, gt to increase my pace for cleaning. argh... ok, tats all for today, bb...

2008-02-04T06:32:00.000+08:00

Juz reach home after watching match, Newcastle vs Boro at serangoon garden, Liquid Kitchen wit des, kel n justin. As usual order purple zess n watch the match. The match was quite exciting, newcastle nearly win but boro draw back 1-1 in the last 10mins n the match ended 1-1. After tat plan to ton overnite but tml still need go get cny clothes wit des they all so went home.

There were times I wonder wat am I doing, y I am doing it, wat is the right thing to do, wat the future holds? Future is full of unpredictable so I dare nt tink wat the future holds cos its nt within my control but wat I can do is slowly take each steps, concentrate on fulfilling the mission tat I set for myself. Well, I hav say some in my mind but there r still some things tat I tink its better to keep to myself, maybe wait for the right time to say (if there is).

2008-02-03T17:46:00.000+08:00

haix... feel tat im such a hypocrite...

2008-02-03T06:45:00.000+08:00

Juz reach home after watching show "Rambo 4" at jurong point wit xm, mk, st n siong. Ok la, n bad show but still quite gruesome n sadist which I don reali like. lolz. After tat went to west mall mac to hav supper n slack. lolz. the whole outing mk kept suan xm sth over brother which I shall nt mention la. lolz. It all start juz becos xm don let mk c his sms. hahaz.

Was doing spring cleaning in my study room n well, happen to saw some stuff of the past. My mum has been nagging me for weeks to do spring cleaning but I keep laze around n tell her tml n tml. Acutally its nt I don wan to do de, partly cos im quite lazy at home de la, hahaz n oso scare to c those past stuff again. Hm...Don noe y I still open it n c those stuff again. Haix... well, it reminds me of the past n of cos la, I was quite dw la. lolz, haix... tats 2 phrase which im so tired n sick to hear abt it cos those exact words is always repeat n repeat. When will I nt ever heard those again? haix... Hm... time reali flies, 3 yrs on yet I will still feel dw abt it. Til tis day Im still deeply regretted over the mistakes tat I made tat time. Tinking back, tat particular 1 yr was reali hard on n extremely difficult for me but well, I manage to du guo tat diffcult period n move on to be stronger abit... I guess so ba... Hm.. we live for the sake of ourselves n nt live for the sake of others tats y we attain the greatest happiness if we depend on oursleves... ok la, 6.45 already!!! time to slp. lolz. tats all... bb

haix... phrases tat I don wan heard keep hearding it n the one phrase which I wish to happen juz nv happen...

2008-02-02T02:20:00.000+08:00

Play soccer during 2nd breakout today n there 20 ppl playing so in order to accomdate every1 we had to use 3 basketball. Well, my team won 2-1 n im happy tat I score both my team goals but oso disappointed wit my mistake tat lead to my team conceed. I try to clear the ball but the ball hit an advance player n deflect in -_- . Anyway, although I haven play enuff but did enjoy myself la. lolz. Today is oso the last day in RP. Sigh... when walking out of the sch, kind of like yi yi bu she de feeling. My friends n I always complain sch work stress la, faci or class nt gd la, sch veri uninteresting la so wan to leave asap but when it is the last day already den we say "so fast, leave rp le, still haven enjoy enuff, how we wish still in RP. so bu she de" How strange n contradicting we can be... Although I don hav tis sense of belonging to rp but I guess im going to miss the days in rp. sianz, dw la...

Well, juz a thought onli... hm... hav been wonder how wonderful it will be if our lives has been plan out n we already noe our destiny den maybe nobody will ever feel sad. but I guess, nobody will feel happy or satisfy oso. There always a saying, sth like "we decide n control wat we wan to do in our lives n nt destiny manipulate our lives" Sometimes we hav strong desire to do tis or tat, to achieve tis n tat but its nt within our control n we fail. For the things tat is nt within our control, there is nth we can do other than leaving it fate. If fate don allow us to do wat we wan den I guess we reali hav to tink hard wats next for us in life.

2008-02-01T01:32:00.000+08:00

Tml playing football in sch, reali looking forward to it. Long long time din play le, desperate to play n hungry for goals. hahaz.

haix... quite pissed off in the morning, juz wake up onli n scold by parents over the colours of the cny clothes which I juz bought. Argh...wth la, its nt like i din ask them properly first n after bought for so many days le den scold me which is reali riduculous. Felt so angry til din speak to them the whole morning n simply juz close the door n walk off, left the hse for sch. Nw whenever they tok abt clothes, its boils my blood. argh... forget it.

Well, tml going enjoy playing football n hopefully score lots of. slp for nt. bb...

any saviour out there tat hu can save me? haix... guess.. nt...

2008-01-31T00:39:00.000+08:00

Recently gt 1 crazy idea of juz sign on for navy officer. If sign on for navy le den maybe I wun tink so much or bother so much, out in the sea n disappear...haix.... but tats nt wat I wan in life. Well, tat would be my last last choice of route in life if after NS I still gt no idea wat to do for career. Sianz, sch ending real soon, juz 2 more days onli n can say gd bye to studies le, tat is if after NS din continue to study. ok la, nth much to say le. im off...

2008-01-28T00:16:00.000+08:00

Juz reach home around 11pm. Went to quite few places to buy CNY clothes wit lim. First went Marina Sq to hav lunch at Carl's Jr. I tink I shld say lunch+dinner. lolz. First time went Carl's Jr eat so quite noob la. Watever the cashier ask wan to add tis or add tat or upsize tis n tat, I oso say "Yes, ok" cos don noe the terms. So when the burger come, wah I reali stun dao cos the burger is super HUGE !! Half of the burger oso gt prob biting. hahaz. The drink super big oso in the end the whole meal make me super super full til cant walk properly even til nw Im blogging, the burger still inside stomach, its so FULL man!! hahaz. After tat shop around there awhile before moving on to raffles city den bugis n lastly Junction8. Tat lim reali over already, he say juz accom me go buy onli but instead he went on shopping spree- 4 shirts, 3 pants. He reali too too up already. Somemore still nt enuff say still wan to buy wat superman design T-shirt. He reali shopping craze sia, hahaz. Anyway, although went to quite a few places to buy but I nt as craze as him, din go on a spree so in the end buy 2 shirt onli. lolz. Ok la, tats all for the day. Im off...

cheerz...!

2008-01-26T04:43:00.000+08:00

Ok I hav an announcement to make, as of today I hav officially FINISH my FYP. Phew, finally can call it an official end. NO MORE slpless nitez, stressful problems, tat lousy feeling of giving up, the high blood pressure which I always exprience when meeting supervisor n so on..... enuff of it!! Wats left is the result which everyday im going pray n hope I pass, else c me next sem in RP lo... sianz... Anyway, ytd tok to lim n xinming n I realise tat quite some time din go out wit them le. Sry guys, keep turning dw u all cos FYP. Time to UP n ENJOY~~ !! hahaz. Later in the afternoon planning to go buy CNY clothes but tats a prob... I gt no idea wat to buy n where to buy. lolz jia lat man but I oso hardly ever buy clothes oso la. Ok la, tired nw. It has been a long time since I had a nice, cozy slp so well, im going slp til nobody business. hahaz. Tats all, nitez...

2008-01-23T23:42:00.000+08:00

Juz came back frm dinner wit my friends after FYP presentation today. Haix... Veri veri dw... Today FYP presentation was a total disaster. My team kena shoot til reali reali veri jia lat. Although Im already mentally prepare for the mass questioning or shooting but the whole presentation was reali reali jia lat. The question the evaluators shoot were either pointing out tat we hav done wrongly some things or we din do at all. All we could ans was "hm.. err.. we din.... do tis or do tat." First slides they already start shoot and subsequence slides get worst and worst. haix... I could sense by the expression of the evalutors indirectly saying tat my team maybe by far the worst team they hav evaluate. It reach to the point tat I reali don feel like continue presenting. I noe ppl will say "hey, its over man. don tink abt it" which yes I agree but juz cant help it reviewing it. Well, I cant blame oso cos my team hav try hard to finish juz in time but doesnt change the fact our work juz simply nt gd enuff. I felt im heavy responsible for the poor performance cos in the first place its my decision to choose tat project when my other teammates hav some doubts whether to choose tat ornt. haix... now the onli thing I can do is pray n hope tat the evaluators will be lenient in their grading n juz let my team pass. haix... veri dw, a disaster presentation, a disaster day. haix... Don noe wat to say anymore...

2008-01-22T01:00:00.000+08:00

In life, when u wan to do sth time n situation is a veri factor. When the time is juz right n the situation is in ur favour, watever u do will always be successful but when the time n situation is wrong, no matter how hard u work for or how much u wish, hope or even pray for, u will still fail cos time n situation forbids u to do anything. There r times when u wan to do sth but yet u delay, u escape, u indecisive, u tink too much n by the time has past by, u hav lost. so hu u lost to? TIME... By the time u realise it, its too late, u feel frustrated, u curse urself "Y am I such a coward?", u blame urself, u tink of "wat if tis n tat", u ask urself "wats wit me?" but still time wun rewind back for u.

so ppl don be a coward, a shuo tou turtle n lastly don lost to TIME !!

(im nt emo but juz pure frustration here...)

2008-01-20T20:05:00.000+08:00

Tis morning came back at 7 plus after frm celebrating ah tai n zhen xiong bday wit my sec friends. Firstly had dinner at a coffee shop near xinming's hse. Well, the dinner was abit dw la cos the food nt veri nice. After tat went to chevrons to sing K. Wah, all veri up sia especially when we sing "umbrella" song which we modified it to "poncho, poncho, poncho, pon, pon, pon..." instead of the "ella". hahaz. The whole trip we were sitting on sunny's lorry which he borrow frm his aunt mention my lim. All 8 of us were squeezing behind wit some goods n its was a veri veri bumpy ride. The worst part of the ride was go over the road humb, sunny always purposely ram over the humb so hard tat our whole body fly up n land hard on our buttocks. ouch! lolz. Ok la, although bumpy but the quite enjoy the ride cos windy quite relaxing. Its around 3am after the K session at chevrons yet all still veri up n hungry so went to geylang to eat tim sum. After the tim sum, all quite tired le but they still nt dw. hahaz. They so up til list dw the next few activities to do, went fico play football la, go ice-skating la, go explore the newly open T-3 la... Wah too up la. hahaz. But after tat go east coast park hang around there awhile den went home le. Ok la tats all for my day, finally Happy Bday to my 2 friends Ah Tai n Zhen Xiong.

cheerz...!

2008-01-19T01:36:00.000+08:00

Nt feeling gd today. Feeling veri veri tired n dw. Don noe wats wit me. Reali need to breath in some fresh air. Tml celebrating tai n zhen xiong bday by eating "zhi char" at jurong west after tat go chevrons sing K, don noe whether gt mood to up wit them or nt. hope tml can enjoy myself la.. nth liao. bye...

2008-01-16T23:38:00.000+08:00

Sianz... today wake up super late man - at 4.30 pm!! Its spoils my mood for the day if I wake up so late. Well, thought tat submitted fyp, suppose to hav a nice, cosy, peaceful slp but instead had alot bad dreams. -_- the worst one was in tat dream doc tell me I gt heart disease, anytime can get heart attack. Wah, tink back my leg become jelly. lolz. Anyway, choi la. im healthy person! hahaz. Well, other than having a rare dinner wit my relatives, whole day stay at hoem updating my FM game. nth much for now. Off to study, tml still gt UT. Sianzzzzz..... lolz. byes

2008-01-16T01:18:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!! submitted wit a completed FYP, now left onli presentation so on 23rd im going to be a FREE MAN!!! lolz. Past few mths hav been so stress over whether I can complete on time. The last 2 weeks was quite terrible, the stress level reach to a point where I reali almost give up. Bef feeling the limit, in life I nv experience the amount of stress tat I had bef so its was quite hard. I guess tis is juz the beginning, next time in working life, there is still don noe how times more stressful than wat i had for fyp still yet come. Well gt prepare myself although no matter how much i hate stress n competition. I hav to reali thx a gd friend for those encouragement words else don tink I can managed it wit all the probs I had with my team. Well, now tat I hav submitted, felt so relieve, finally can put dw tis big big stone. Gt so many many things I plan to do after fyp, go beach la, go holiday wit family, go explore new n interesting places which I nv been bef la, watch show la.... wah lots n lots of things cant name all. lolz. Im going to reali enjoy all out til I drop. muhahahaz.

Recently my father ask me wats my plan after army. Haix... seriously, I don noe wat I wan to do. I don excel in anything so reali quite a big prob to tink. Like lim once say, we hav reach a point in life when we cannot afford to make a wrong decision, take a step. 1 wrong step n u r gone, no way back le. Wat we wan to do or a decision we hav to make, we reali need to consider careful. Well, reali need some time to tink abt my future. I guess I shall use the 2yrs in army to reali tink hard abt it.

Well , someone remind me tat a particular date is coming. Haix... every yr in the calendar, tis date is the 1 tat I wan to avoid the most. I guess it would be the same for tis yr (yet again), shut myself at home n don even take a step out of my hse. -_-

Juz started learning driving, how shld I decribe it, it was quite exciting but at the same time feel quite tense up n oso quite gan jiong quickly change gear especially when drive past by a vehicle. Anyway, its my 1st time la but reali excited abt it although ppl will say I "shua ku". Looking forward to next lesson. hahaz. Feels quite relaxing to blog again after so long. Ok la, off for now...

cheerz...!

Alot of Qs which I don noe how shld I face it or ans it. Time is against me...

2008-01-06T21:48:00.000+08:00

Well, today play football frm morning til afternoon wit some my old sec sch soocer teammates n it has been don noe how many yrs since I last play wit them. kind of reminds me the old days, every sat play football when still in swiss. Anyway, quite tired for the rest of the day after nt enuff slp n work out. Sianz... sch reopen le, counting dw 7 days til FYP D-DAY =deadline day, doom day or death day... watever how I describe it. Next 7 days will be crucial for me as its depends on whether I can graduate at the norm date wit every1 else or spend another extra 2 mths in RP again. Sry to my friends which I keep turning dw outings due to fyp commitment. Ok la, im off. Time to increase x10 my efforts to fight the "war" for the next 7 days. Hopefully I win or can make it...

2008-01-02T03:48:00.000+08:00

Today first day of 2008 n kind of dull for me. Wake up at 5pm plus yet don noe y still feel veri shag even though I had enuff hours of slp (7 hrs). After tat do my normal routine tis holidays, play psp den went dinner wit family den watch tv n matches. Quite shag today til spend juz 2hrs on fyp onli. Tats bad -_- . Well, later might be going back to sch get help on my fyp so hopeful I would be able to wake up early later. hahaz. Ok la, nth much next football stuff...

Football stuffs~
Watch Arsenal match juz now vs Westham which Arsenal won 2-0 score by Eduardo n Adebayor. Eduardo's goal was cool man, control the ball wit 1st touch n the 2nd touch smash the ball into the goal. Tis player composure n finishing is gd man hopeful he will be a big asset to Arsenal.

(Thankful cos for the whole experience n tat particular 2days)

2008-01-01T08:24:00.000+08:00

Juz reach home frm countdw n ton-ing overnite. Well, went to countdw n watch firework displays at esplanade wit my sec gang- xinming, ming kai, lim, ho lei, jia xing n say tiong. We reach marina square quite late (around 11.30pm) so there is simply hardly any gd spot for us to watch the fireworks. So as expected, we hav to squeeze our way thru n we manage find a spot which is at the lower stairs of marina sq. When the fireworks finally started, we were all abit dw cos we realise tat our view is block by trees so other than those fireworks which shot high up into the sky, the rest of the firework we were nt able to c it. I manage to get a few glimpse of the fireworks tat r shot frm the water (thru the trees!) n it look quite nice. The firework display lasted onli 8mins. I muz say the atmosphere is nt as exciting as NDP so nt tat reali excited or eagerly anticipate for it. Juz like the x'mas, after went to watch movie, Alien vs Predator 2 (which ho lei say is nt as gd as compare to part 1) n den to glutton bay to hav our supper. Slack there n chat til around 4am bef moving to raffles place area which we slack there n chat again. lolz n den home sweet home as all were quite dw le. I realise sth strange was whenever I dw, the rest r up n whenever I up, they dw like juz now. Weird. lolz. Anyway, overall I enjoy the gathering. hahaz.

Well 2007 hav past n I muz say its a particularly hard yr for me especially the later part of the yr which lots of things happen. Studies n personal stuff. For studies, finally end a terrible time wit the yr2 sem 2 class. Being in W66L class hav rejuvenate my life in rp as I meet alot of nice ppl frm tat class n enjoy my time in tat class. N den comes yr 3 sem 2 which change classes n I lost motivation to study mainly to the competitiveness in tat class which I simply juz cant blend in. My fyp2 oso hugely affected too. As for personal stuff, I started going for it wit alot of belief, courage, determination tat I might succeed but in the end it turns out to be the outcome which yet again the same as the past n was reali veri dw for quite sometime. During tat period I lost the belief, the courage, the will n oso lost my own self so its reali veri diffcult time for me. Although the outcome is nt wat I wish for but I gain alot in many aspects frm tat experience. Well, Im glad tat I manage to pull myself tgt n move on. Finally wat I can say, nt tat I wish for but Im thankful to hav tat experience n oso learnt sth frm it.

2008 coming ahead so wat r my upcoming phase in life, aims, hopes n wishes? Basically is still the same things which I had for every yr. For studies, its another 1 mth bef I graduate. I reali hope to at least manage to cross the hurdle whether its my normally studies or fyp. Will be going in army tis yr oso so I gt to start serious tinking abt my future n like I say bef there r alot of things I wish n hope to do bef going in army. As for personal stuff, I wan to start afresh. If possible I hope to giv myself 1 last chance again, so reali hope tat my wishes come true

Ok, finally I wish every1 out there, especially to all my friends HAPPY NEW YEAR!! n hope u all succeed in watever things u do for yr 2008. hahaz

cheerz every1 to 2008....! =)

(To my sec gang the swiss destiny ppl, its coming to the 9th yr of our friendship n COME ON!!! We R going make to the 20th yr, the 50th yr or even maybe the 80th yr. hahahaz)

2007-12-30T04:13:00.000+08:00

Well, nth much to blog today. Doing the usual routine which I mention ytd but at least I manage to force myself to do fyp although still the same nt much progress. Nth much to say so I shall blog football stuff. Juz now watch Arsenal match n nearly pull my hair out. Arsenal won 4-1 away against Everton but the scoreline flatter Arsenal performance. Although its a big margin scoreline but I tink Arsenal play veri badly in the first half. The 2nd half was slightly better but still nt gd enuff to wat every1 expect of Arsenal. I admit Arsenal was veri lucky to win the match, 3 of the Arsenal goals came frm individual mistakes. Well, still, I happy wit the win n overtake man utd to be at top of the table but quite disappoint wit the performance yet again. COME ON ARSENAL!!! ok nth more to blog, off to slp for now. cheerz...!

2007-12-29T03:32:00.000+08:00

Tis few days hav been staying home rot. Well, it nt like I don hav anything to do. Juz don noe why don feel like doing anything even my fyp. Everyday exact same routine, wake up-> eat lunch-> play psp-> watch tv -> eat dinner-> watch tv again -> play com game -> slp... Wah no life sia. Sianz. Reali need to get my head dw n start doing. Ytd heard a veri bad n dw news. Haix so many friendship, i reali hope xm can reconsider his decision. Giv a chance to the grp n voice out his opinions. 7 coming to 8 yrs of friendship le, haix... wat has happen to the many yrs of friendship le?

2007-12-26T06:38:00.000+08:00

Ok, finally I reach home again. It has been quite hectic the past few days. Christmas eve went to watch midnite show "I am legend" wit mk n xm at marina sq. Nt a veri nice show, after tat went eat at a place beside esplanade den slack around there area til 7am plus n went to eat breakfast at JE mac. Although had enuff slp bef go out but don noe still feel veri tired throughout whole outing tat day. I miss my bed already but xm n mk reali veri up , still say wan to chevrons sing K after breakfast! Crazy man... hahaz. Reach home at around 10am n slp til 6pm which after tat go out AGAIN to for mini christmas party wit my sec friends at jx hse. First time, we had tis kind party which we all exchange presents wit each other. Well, I muz admit I recevied nt quite a gd present- 2 packet of wet tissue, hahaz, but anyway is the process of exchanging which means more so din reali mind much abt the present. lolz. Well, after tat went chevrons sing K til around 1am n lastly went JE mac eat supper den home sweet home. I tink reali need to exile myself at home le cos last few days activities had reali totally drain my wallet n somemore New Year is coming up. -_- how can I still hav $ to enjoy?? As there hav been many activities for past few days, there hav been some argument between some of friends. Reali don wish tis type of happen so I hope every1 can be understanding, understand the difficulties the other parties might hav. Ok la, shall nt comment much on tat issue. Btw the time I publish tis post, Christmas is already over le but anyway wish every1 MERRY CHRISTMAS n I wish santa claus (if there is 1 exist, hahaz) to giv me 2 presents. Im off now, looking forward to New Year next. bb =)

cheerz...! MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

2007-12-22T02:31:00.000+08:00

Today had fyp meeting n was quite happy tat the team hav progress abit. After went sakae wit xm, mk n lim in the evening n lastly end the day taking neoprint. Veri gay sia, 4 guys taking neoprint. hahaz. Funny thing was we were all veri blur n dumb la, don noe how to operate. Guess neoprint r usually gals things. hahaz. Anyway lately im had alots of dreams n suddenly im being "confronted" wit lots of Q which I don noe is it right or wrong. Haix... don noe wats going on wit me n I don noe wat I shld do. Well, off to slp now tml need to wake earlier than usual as playing football wit my friends in jurong west. bye~

2007-12-20T05:00:00.000+08:00

Was initially plan to rot the whole day but xm n lim come my hse in the late afternoon juz to watch a channel 8 or U show -_- . lolz. They hang awhile in my hse bef we all go chomp chomp for dinner. Lastly went to lim's hse to laze around n chit chat. Well, had a long chat abt alot things frm the usual sec mischief happenings to their own personal experience. Sianz... Reali miss my sec days. Remind me the fun I had doing those havoc things wit my friends, the gd old days. Classic man, hahaz. Well, there r oso some dw things especially within my groups of friends, so many conflicts n til now yet to be resolve. Cant comment oso cos I personally oso hav conflict. lim ask 1 Q, if we go back to sec days wat r the things tat we wan to do most. I gt quite a few things I wan to do which I shall nt mention here. Tinking back, quite alot things I regretted espcially one particular thing. haix... Well, I guess wat happen in recent years seems to me like its a punishment for wat I hav done in the past, wonder when tis punishment will end? Anyway, it serve as a lesson for me n like ppl always say, wat happen in the past is already been done we cant change it no matter how regretted we r, we shld look forward for the future n hope, be positive for gd things to come. lim has 1 saying which I tink was veri true n apply to me, something like "don look back at the past n worry abt the future..." something like tat. Cant rember the full saying. hahaz. Ok la, enuff my reflection, argh... getting sick veri soon, eat too much heaty n spicy stuff. rest... slp slp~~

2007-12-18T00:40:00.001+08:00

Hm... well, nth eventful things happen today. Afternoon went bbdc to get my PDL which I waited for 2hours for my Q no. to be call. -_- But well, at least done something to kept myself frm being frustrated while waiting, by watching baby slping. lolz. The baby slp so soundly n look so peaceful. Don hav any worries or tink of wat will happen tml, how envy the baby. lolz. Anyway, how can compare myself to babies. hahaz. After tat went to sch suppose to install dreamweaver as don hav it in my advertise but it was a wasted trip. The helpdesk ppl don allow me to install cos alot reason la. Sianz, well in the end borrow a few thick books back home for fyp. Happen to saw the sch open hse n it seems like the open hse getting dull n less vibrant each year. Don hav the feeling of "welcome, come join RP!!!" tat kind of enthu n exciting atomsphere. Sch allocate less budget tis year? Don noe la, graduating soon but I still don hav tis sense of belonging to RP. lolz. Maybe noe nt much friends ba. Ok, Im off. bb...

2007-12-17T03:27:00.000+08:00

Haix... Tis few days feeling veri terrible. My mind is going to blow off n im going to hav heart attack veri soon. Feeling reali reali reali.... stressful, worry, lousy n helpless over my fyp tis few days. Im in deep trouble n I desperatly need help but I reali don noe hu to turn to. My friends are busy rushing over their own projects so cant ask them for help while my teammates... haix... don noe how I shld put it, I don wan comment cos I don wan to destroy friendship n I myself oso at fault. Im reali serious now but I juz simply don hav the ability or the help tat I need to do. Nv felt so helpless in my studies bef. Haix... Im trying to stay positive n keep calm but each time tink of my progress n the deadline, another part of my mind says "Even god oso cant save me, im already finished, its onli matter of time tat I need to stay back next sem." Haix... Its nt my character to giv up but Im reaching the state of giving up. So helpless, going to go crazy, heart bursting soon. I need desperatly need help but hu can I turn to...?

jia lat, wan dan liao, dead for sure, mati
Haix....................................x100

2007-12-14T16:13:00.000+08:00

Ytd went to lim's hse to eat steam boat to celebrate lim's bday. As I hav anticipated, we cant finish the food n alot of leftover especially fish balls although we hav try to stuff in as much as possible (fish ball wars). Wah, eat the fish balls reali can die man, so too bloated man. Last time is taiwan sausage tat we left alot, tis time is diff shape- round ones. lolz. Quite a few funny incidents especially during the cutting of the cake. After sing bef finish, we had a bday bash at lim. Xm was suppose to be the person hu bash ppl instead kena elbow dao by sunny n the process is capture on the camera which I will post once I got. hahaz. Well some of us ton overnite tok abt our usual topic, our sec life. Huai nian the old days. lolz. Xm invented a new way of playing blackjack. The game play is still the same onli tat rule is, every1 get 3 rounds to be the banker, the banker will nt get punish if he lose while those hu lose to the banker will get a whack on the flat side of our foot (jiao di). Wah, painful sia if the banker reali hit hard. hahaz. After a number of rounds, all the foots cannot tahan liao, need recover 1st den can continue. hahaz. Well, some of them play mahjong while I take nap of 2 hrs cos I still gt sch T.T . I left at 7am while they all was juz starting up the steam boat for breakfast!!! Siao la. hahaz. I tink the amount of food leftover can last lim for 2 days. hahaz. Well, reali hav enjoy the celebration n the gathering.

Reach home 30mins onli for me to bath n changeover bef im off to sch. My routine gone haywire man, suddenly cant tell the diff between ytd n today. lolz. Sianz... Actually I oso don noe y I go to sch. Terrible nt enuff slp, feel so regretted when I reach sch. Worst of all, the faci already so long winded during usual lesson, today even more long winded. My team nearly blow off n blast at the faci but they control since my class planning to play basketball during lunchtime. Was initially quite reluctant to join them but in the tio psycho n last day. Don care la. lolz. I muz say I reali sux at bball, cant score a single shot n totally dominated by ppl. -_- How drastic opposite it would be if its football. lolz.

Well, holidays is coming but I tink I cant reali enjoy like usual holidays cos tis 3 big letter which I always stress over - FYP. Argh... countdw 4 weeks to deadline n its get something or die!! Haix... Ok la, a zombie liao. Terrible need slp x10... im off !

cheerz...!

2007-12-13T00:56:00.001+08:00

YESH !!! FINALLY I PASS my final theory test. hahaz. Many of u will say its juz a test nia nth to exciting but hey, its still a test. hahaz. Getting slightly closer to my 'golden blue driving license'. Before I went in, was veri nervous especially while doing. The invigilator tell the canidates finish le juz leave the room, don need check over n over again, say frm his experience, the more u check , the more likely will fail as u will confuse urself n change frm initially correct ans to wrong ans. lolz. I tink when I do my O's oso nt so nervous as compare to tis. lolz. While doing the test, suddenly gt tis feeling tat Im going to fail. I thought to myself "wah, jia lat. Worst moment to hav tis feeling". Well I juz continue doing n finish le check thru once. I was reali too nervous n wan to check thru again de but I remember wat the invigilator say n wat my sec friends use to say bef exam, "aiya. hui pass jiu shi hui pass, if is fail don matter how many times u check thru will still be the same" so click end test n the word "Pass" appeared. Phew... n oso nearly cant contain my joy. hahaz. 1 quite funny was when I reach home, I tell my parents tat I hav 1 gd news n 1 bad news. Gd news is tat I pass so they were quite satisfied but when I tell them the bad news is tat I wan them sponsor my driving lesson, they pretend nv hear n turn went back to their room. -_- . hahaz. Ok enuff of my gd news. Happy x5

After test went to ten mile junction Sheng Siong wit lim n xm to buy steamboat food for tml lim's bday. Wah, I c the amount of stuff tat xm put into the trolley, I reali worry sia. Its monster amount man. I tink sure cannot eat finish liao like our last chalet. Well, tml nt juz its lim's bday, its oso an opportunity for our group to gather again. Tml going to enjoy as much as possible. Ok la, lastly-
Happy Birthday Lim (Siong)...

cheerz...!!!

2007-12-12T01:00:00.000+08:00

Ok, macro UT2 result come out n as expected, I failed badly. Although already expectated but still veri disappointed la. D = super dw. Haix... 3 dw 1 more to go, last chance for me to be motivated for UT4. Well, another test coming up in abt 16 hrs n 30 mins frm now. Its my advance theory test. Quite nervous as I din prepare well yet again n oso I failed once bef. Hopefully after click on the "end test" button, I will c the big green word "PASS" n NOT the red word. Argh... I MUZ PASS TIS TIME!!! hahaz